Who knows?

2010-08-11T22:25:00.003+08:00

Now, Since i'm bored, Each day i'm bored at home, i shall blog something i have in my mail box... (:

This is what i have for day 1 so enjoy... ((:

A husband wakes up at home with a huge hangover. He forces himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins and a glass of water on the side table. He sits down and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed. He looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotless, clean. So is the rest of the house.

He takes the aspirins and notices a note on the table. "Honey, breakfast is on the table, I left early to go grocery shopping. Love You!"

Totally shocked with the note , he goes to the kitchen and sure enough there is a hot breakfast and the morning newspaper. His son is also at the table, eating. He asks, "Son, what happened last night?" His son says, "Well, you came home around 3 AM, drunk and delirious.

Broke some crockery, puked in the hall, and gave yourself a black eye when you stumbled into the door". Confused, the man asks, "So, why is everything in order and so clean, and breakfast is on the table waiting for me? I should expect a big quarrel with her!"

His son replies, "Oh, that! Mom dragged you to the bedroom, and when she tried to take your clothes n shoes off, you said, "LADY LEAVE ME ALONE! I'M MARRIED!"

Moral
:Self-induced hangover - $ 400.00
Broken crockery - $ 800.00
Breakfast - $ 10.00
Saying the Right Thing While Drunk - "PRICELESS"

2010-04-20T00:31:00.002+08:00

Hello world! My sayang ask me to blog! ((:

So yeah!

Life's been full of ups and downs lately...

But best of all, The CIRCLE LINE IS FINALLY OPEN!

Travel time to sch now would only be 30mins! instead of the damn boring 1hr 10mins!!!

Schedule has been very tight lately...
Either busy at sch, out with syng, or too tired and resting at home... So yeah thats life...

Thats all world, Goodbye!

LOVE you syng! ((:

2010-03-06T02:16:00.002+08:00

It's been quite a long time since i've blogged man... wonder how are u guys doing... ((: LOL! If there's any readers left... LOL! Anyway, life has been very stressful for me... I've had lots of work to do and i finally managed to clear all the whole lot before deadline! How lucky was that? ((: And thank God, i didnt get debar man... really... I cannot belive that i managed to get through that stage... For those who have helped me through my sufferings, i really thank you from the bottom of my heart... ((: Now that i've finally managed to get through this stage, i really hope you guys will continue to support and push me through whatever chanllenge thats coming up next especially next term's sch assignments and all... I'm really worried but i am going to try my very best to give my best... ((: Alright, i've gotta go bed soon... Anyway, i've been thinking or not whether to take a bike license, i guess i'll be gonna give it a try when i can find the fundings... ((: Pray for me... ((: LOL! Goodnight my dear friends and blog readers... ((:

2010-01-22T00:59:00.002+08:00

It's been a very long time since i posted something... anw, i had a very good, fun, enjoying and great 19th birthday... Thanks... ((: I'll post a really long post soon... stay tune... Goodbye! ((:

2010-01-04T00:52:00.002+08:00

So fast it's 2010! Hahaha... Happy New Year everyone... And here's My New Year Resolution!
1. Stop scolding vulgarities
2. Stop ********! (some ppl know what) LOL!
3. Get good grades for my studies! ((:

2009-12-30T02:23:00.001+08:00

Hey guys, i wont be online after today till next year... So yeah! Take care and God bless all of you! Enjoy! Happy New Year in advance! Hahaha! ((:

2009-12-06T22:39:00.002+08:00

Wow amazingly, this is my 100th post... ((: Heh... Anw, i've been thinking of changing my blog link soon... Just havent got the idea of what it should be yet...
I have,
1 last week of sch,
2 more days to my friend's birthday,
3 more assignments of each subject to hand up,
4 more days to complete every assignment,
5 more day to PARTY!
6 more assignments total to hand up!
7 days a week is really long!
8 more days till Christmas shopping starts!
9 hrs time i'm suppose to be in sch!
10 days time is the 16th! Haha... okay...
Goodbye everyone... I had the weirdest dream last night... Goodnight... ((:

2009-11-26T23:16:00.002+08:00

God, i've helped many people throughout my life wholeheartedly... Whenever anyone's sad/down and i know about it, i'll help that person... Whenever something happens to anyone and i know about it, i'll be there... But God, honestly i dont know what to do... I might not even get to stay in sch any longer... Well God, from my N's to O's and now ITE but still it's not for me? Almost everything i've done i failed... But without any pullbacks, i never let it overtake me for too long cause i know i could use that time to do something to make my life better rather than just being sad and making others sad... I've learn to put a smile on my face no matter what but these days, it's been getting so tough, i dont know what to say... Sometimes it's so tough that maybe i just wanna be alone for the wholeday... I want to be happy and put a smile on my face so much that i'm never tired of it... I might not have a sch next term anymore... and i dont know what to do... My results have been going down down down since sch started... Yst night my teacher msn me that by next term if my grades continue to drop at this rate, i guess i might be out... Few weeks back one of my sub teacher sat down beside me and ask me drop out and study something else he said so many bad stuff that i really didnt know hw else to carry on... After that day, i never once attended his lesson anymore... He used to find that i have a talent in it but just i havent push myself to get it out yet... But after seeing my results dropping so badly continuesly, he suggest that i should make plans for my next year instead of coming back to sch... Many things have been happening actually... Putting a smile on my face each day really gets tougher... I'm getting by day by day not daring to look forward and make plans anymore... Dreams it may be but it always gets smashed but it doesnt really set me back down but many other things... I havent been blogging for a long time... I really want to find some space and time to just be happy... God i belive that isnt a problem but just my sch... Help me yeah... Tks... Goodbye world... Sadness it may be, But i'm sure HAPPINESS IS AWAITING ME! ((:

2009-11-12T23:31:00.001+08:00

Glenn Lim's gonna be on MTV ITE GOT TALENT! ((: But just for afew secs cause it's a very short video... ((: Okay i've lots of assignment to do and i've gotta go bed now... Cause it's a long day tmr again! So is this weekend! oh man... Okay guys, Goodnight! ((:

2009-11-08T21:38:00.003+08:00

If you were to compair me afew months ago and now, who would say i'm still the same?
Thinking back, i realised that i've changed alot... Some is to forget the past, others is to try and be a better person... But i've realised that my temper has gone worst... I've been thinking about things and trying to find out how to not be slightly angry whenever something happens or not to even give the slightest attitude... But for some people, they have just taken advantage of me trying not to be angry cause sometimes when i think about the day's happenings, i realised that some people do take advantage of people temper... Anw, Played soccer today and it's quite alright i guess... ((: My cough's getting worst... cant run much now if not will cough alot... Today's soccer was more of walking cause i tried running but ended up coughing haha.. Okay i've got lots of assignments to hand up this week... Shit ass... Oh well, i'm trying my best to be happy now guys... Give me just some more time to adjust and i should be fine... ((: Everything's coming to an end soon... Dec's coming too and idk to go around with my mum not... she's been asking me to go quite afew trips to malaysia and afew other countries... Stupid school assignments! okay i g2g... Goodbye take care and God bless... Always be happy! ((:

2009-11-05T21:21:00.002+08:00

idk why cant u belive me? You ask me questions and i tell you the truth, but just why wouldnt you belive me? Since young, you've always been like that to me... WHY! Always blaming me for things i didnt do... Always 1st in your mind when something spoils, Always 1st in your mind when you need help... Anything bad happens or anything that spoils, you just blame me without even asking the rest... And even when i tell you i didnt, or it isnt me, you'll never belive me till someone owns up... WHY! Why must you always make me fucking pissed! why... The world out there, all they care is themselves... Have you ever thought about the other person's feelings? Fucking selfish! Tell me since when did you ever though about MY FEELINGS when you did something to me? All you care about is yourself and still raise your voice when i just raise my alittle... You even fucking slam things acting like you're all right... WHAT ABOUT ME? Have you thought about that? Fuck all that k... I havent been in the best of mood cause i'm going through quite a shit k... And sch's fucking fucked up! Trying my best to run away from all the teachers cause the assignments are never ending! FUCK! You dont know the feeling of whats life now k... It's screwed k and i chose this road myself few months ago... And now, I WANT TO FUCKING U TURN AND I'M GOING TO DO THAT! I'm going to live my life of who i am and what i'm happy with knowing that i'll never regret anything anymore when i look back in the past next time... YES!
Sometimes, i get blaimed for things that are misunderstandings from my actions... Even if it means out of goodwill, in some others eyes, you maybe up to no good and they're trying to think what evil things are you up to next... Well, i've always lived life to the fullest and i always help others with my fullest heart... So incase if anything that happens and you ever have the impression or thought that i've done/doing something bad, come clarify it with me anytime, cause for sure it aint something bad... Yes, thats about it... Rather that all these, i've been falling sick for the past 2 weeks... Everything on off... fever, flu, rashes, cough, shorness in breath...
Okay everyone, i'm off... Goodbye... Take care and God bless everyone... (:

2009-10-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

To say the truth, i've been in a very bad mood...
Today i raised my voice at my mum... And i feel very bad about it... It was because of food... FUCK THAT FOOD! i rather starve now... I'm sorry mum...
My life's kinda screwed now... I know i can still turn back... But i just dont want idk why...
I'm just sorry mum... No more mood to blog... Goodbye everyone...
I'm dead tired...

2009-10-27T23:37:00.001+08:00

Happiness is hard to find indeed...

2009-10-17T16:39:00.002+08:00

God, i seek for your forgiveness... Sorry that i didnt go novena this week... I've been having lots of problems lately... Sometimes i just wish to just fly off and never come back... I can cry all i want there, cause no body would care cause no one know's me there... I really find it so hard to sleep each night... Since sch has started, it has given me alot more problems cause i couldnt wake up each morning cause the night before, i would have so much difficulty sleeping... Just last night, i was lying on my bed for 4hrs not being able to sleep... I just wanna work all my energy out so that when the night comes, i will just knock out when i hit the bed... I dont wanna grow any smaller... I tried forcing myself to eat alot more and work out less and stop running and whatever... But it's no use... IDK what else to do... I just hope the time come soon... Than at least i can just be alone somewhere where no one know's me... I havent been doing well in sch... Always late and attendence not mark present... Work not up to my standard and lots of bull shit... idk what else is gonna come in my way... But God, i sure hope you'll be there to help me through each and every part and day of life... Goodbye all... Time to go out cause it's boring at home...

2009-10-13T00:20:00.004+08:00

The time now is 12.20am!

Sch has started again... Sian... So long hrs pls... )): At least it's a good thing in one way or another... But i may be skipping 1 term of sch due to some reasons... Anw, my body's aching... I need to know the feeling of something i've been looking for... Soon, maybe one day, but i know for sure one day, i will be... ((: Have been having real tough time sleeping in the nights and afternoon... Havent been sleeping in peace... Alot of shit have been happening... But God has always been blessing me with everything to pull through, so i thank you Lord for everything... ((: So yes, goodnight everyone...
If i can put a smile on my face, so can you...((: <==(This is to ALL OF YOU!)

2009-10-08T15:23:00.004+08:00

I really didnt know why i made such promise...
All my life, no one has shouted at me. I really tried putting a smile back on my face but i couldnt... I'm sorry if i caused any trouble... And i have my reasons for going back twice...

2009-10-07T13:20:00.004+08:00

Hi everybody, i only knew that many of you still return to read my blog even though i stopped blogging for a long time... I guess this is the only way sometimes some of you can know how's life for me eh? Well, dont need to worry actually, Cause i'm alive and still kicking! Hahaha ((: Today i stay at home to get new songs cause my songs was getting boring and old... Hahaha... So now which toot wanna get some new songs from my phone again? Haha... Anw, I had quite alot of injuries lately again, but alot of them are minor to me... Just afew are quite hurtful at times... Haha... For the past few nights, i've been having very tough time sleeping cause of alot of troubles... I've been trying to wreck my head to solve them all... But no matter what, i would not forget to pray for God's help and to thank him for everything including the daily life he's been blessing me with... Many things have been happening actually... Some people know bits and pieces here, others know bits and pieces there... So if one day they all were to know each other and blah blah blah, who know's Maybe they'll know everything... Hahaha... There are just so many liers on this earth... You tell me, have you ever lived through a day without knowing that someone's obviously lying? Hahaha! I bet even when you're are baby, your parents are lying to each other too... So yeah... I've seen so many liers, i'm so sick and tired of it... Sometimes i just dont even know how to trust my fellow humans anymore... I've seen so many people ending their relationships, that i even give up trying to help anymore... Sometimes i would even just advise r/s couples to just break up cause i just have no faith in there anymore i guess... No one could imagine anything i've been put through since a young age... I still can remember the day my dad just grab my hand and swing my around the house and just let go... lucky i landed on the cushion... And so many others... And sometimes when i blog about all these things, i realise that some of you would even share with me what you've been put through at a very young age... And i guess many of us would have gone through many hardships, but who had gone through the worst? I can say no one, cause not even i dare say that i've been through the worst or been put through the worst... So yeah... Never take life for granted, cause you never know when might be your last day... Anw, my trip has been confirm, i'm leaving singapore in less than a month for sometime and even skipping school for awhile hoping to start life anew when i'm back and forget all about the past...
i stumbbled upon this song quite some time ago and find and it's nice... so here it is...

the song is called, Broken-hearted Girl

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

2009-10-03T02:11:00.000+08:00

I'm left with nothing else to say...

2009-10-02T00:55:00.002+08:00

Dont feel like sleeping tonight... Too much to moan about...
Anyone wanna company me?
Guess tmr i might not be coming home after everything...

2009-10-01T14:23:00.001+08:00

Very sad cause my results not good...
Worst, fight with my mum...
No mood stay at home... bb...

2009-09-29T15:04:00.004+08:00

Wow, It's been like almost 1 week since i last blog... How fast time flys... ((: Anyway, to update on the days that past, Practically, i went shopping 3 times in the past lets say maybe 1 and the half weeks ago? LOL! And well, the amount spend was really quite unbelievable... I shall mention that later... LOL! Anw, i've already blog on my day 1 shopping, which was at novena, heeren... ((:
Things bought on that day was
1. Boots
2. Everlast shoes
3. Everlast Tank
4. Fossil wallet (I LIKE! ((: Even though i spend 30mins looking for it in the bushes the next day when i drop it...)
Yup i think thats all for 1st day...
So yeah... for the 2nd day, that was i think last thursday, I went to bugis, peni, heeren (again) and i think thats all... LOL!
Things bought on that day was
1. Boots 1st grade, just outer part
2. Shorts ((: MANY MANY! ((:
3. Belt ((:
4. Everlast shirts!! ((:
5. Everlast Tank Again! ((:
Yeah! Thats about it for 2nd day... ((:
3rd day, was just on sunday... ((: After F1, went to heeren, bought a bracelet... ((: I like! ((:
Wanted to buy num tank but no more nice ones... Than wanted buy slippers, no more nice ones... )): So thats all for day 3 shopping...
So thats until sunday... Than the rest of this week did nth much just keep going out here and there with friends... But yesterday night kena knock on my head damn hard by some CB fire water host thing! Fking roof so low! CB! Almost kena must stitch... )): Lucky! Haha... But my head's gonna have a scar i guess... )): Went doc today to gave it a check, doc say deep but still ok... so if wanna stitch or not... Nurse who clean my wound ask how come doc dont want stitch? LOL! Who will wanan stitch if they ask you tell me? Hahaha! When must stitch than say... Not still ok... hahaha... Anw, after that came home damn tired... But had to go out again... Than came home about 10plus... BS-ed till about 12plus going 1am... Now it's time to go clean my damn wound and go sleep... Cause tmr it's gonna be quite a long day... And friday, my bro's flying off already... so fast... Soon, it'll be my turn! Hahaha... ((: I'm gonna go novena and pray for my 2nd bro tmr... Anyone wanna come? ((: If you come, i'll pray for you too... Hahaha! Okay okay i g2g sleep le... )): bye bye all...
Oh ya! And i spend about total $800 for shopping bah... LOL! shhhh!!!
AND AND AND!!!!! I GOT MY RESULTS BACK SECRETLY! ((:
I got above average for all subjects! ((: But dont know whats the score yet... Hahaha! ((:
idk what to say, idk what to do and once again, God i lift it all up to you... ((:

2009-09-23T23:53:00.003+08:00

Spend my day at home today... ((:

Morning i woke up quite afew times cause my mind was thinking of some things... So got off my bed at about 10am today and played facebook the whole day for the 1st time! Lol! Than went to RVM to meet my mum... Suppose to help carry things home but in the end she didnt buy anything much so i bought lunch home... KFC 6pieces! LOL! She can really eat i tell you... Hahaha! Shhhh! i ate 2 chicken only... she ate like 3 piece, the fries and med potato... Power right? hahaha! Than continued with my facebook games and went to take a short nap... After raph called, cannot sleep le... Managed to sleep for only like 15mins? LOL! Than got up and played my facebook games again... Than i went to help my mama cook dinner tonight! ((: She cooked the soup and rice, while i fry the vaggies and meat! ((: Yum yum! Super long never had such good home cook food... Some more it's I COOK ONE! Hahaha! ((: So yes, finally spend one full whole day with my mum at home...
Tmr i'm not watching Gamer anymore cause emman's sick... He's down with throat infection and high fever with bad flu.. LOL! Dont forget to pray for him... ((:
Although tmr not watching movie, but i've made other plans! ((:
I'm gonna attend mass at novena tmr at 12.15pm, than meet raph and maybe val at bugis at 1.30pm than we'll all shop!!!! ((: Than we'll see how from there till like 5.30pm i gotta be a PS for some interview for job... Than 6pm it's time for buffet!!!!!! ((: YEAH!!!! ((: So yes there's my plan... Okay now i got quite alot of problems to settle, i g2g although it's 12.24am! Goodbye everyone...
I've been thinking alot about you recently idk why... I just hope all these stops cause it's affecting me alot back again... Only you could hurt me this bad and only you can bring happiness to me through the simplest ways... All the memories in the past hurts and these few days it's been flashing back... It hurts so bad i wouldnt even wanna think of it cause you'll never know what you've put me through... I love you still, i dont know why...

2009-09-22T00:17:00.003+08:00

i am as red as a red man!

Hahahaha... I got very bad sunburns all over my body... Gosh they hurt yes! Bad! I wonder tmr how... Cause i only got them today... Okay I really felt the feeling of whats good finally... and it was Shiok! okay okay i'll blog about yesterday than today alright?
So here's what happened yesterday...
Attended mass and after mass immediately went down to novena to makan, than walk about and do some transfer of money... Than the SHOPPING begins!!!! (((: Hahaha... I really had fun shopping and wow it was good... Although yes i spend until alot... I bought new soccer boots... ((: Than went to heeren to wanted to buy my wallet, but saw the EVERLAST was moving out sale!!! Gosh!!! I've always wanted to buy everlast things since idk when... and finally God gave me a chance since it had offer and i had money!!! ((: Best, i had the mood to shop! ((: Okay so bought new shirt and shoes from everlast! Than went to buy my wallet from Fossil... ((: I didnt had a wallet for like 1month plus please! I had no time to get or either that i had no money... Hahaha! Thank God! ((: Than went to num to buy 2 new shirts for my 2nd bro... Than wanted to buy new slippers from num too, but than no one else wanted buy, and raph didnt like any... )): I wanted the white slippers... )): Oh well... Than shopp finish already about 6.30-6.40pm le... I wanna go back buy everlast things again! I got till the 27th... Thats this weekend... )): I WANT MORE! ((: Hahaha... Than rushed home, put down everything and went to meet my bro's and mum which were in Fr kenny's car... He fetched us to the place cause he was joining us for dinner too with my grandma and family and god parents and a whole lot of church ppl.. Makan from 7plus going 8pm till about 10pm... than went to East Coast Park cause send my bro there... Than came back and went to meet the guys till about 12plus going 1am... Than came home, shower and sleep...
This morning, woke up super early sia! knn... Earlier than going to sch sia... Like 7.30 wake up... Than blah blah blah... Went to get ready about 8plus and meet the guys and about 8.40am? Than went to VJ to meet my bro and his friends... But near VJ, while crossing the FK-ING Bridge, i accidentally dropped my wallet and it took us like fk-ing 30mins or so to find it!!! Cause it blends in with the fking ground and bushes!!! Thanks to emman, we managed to find and and went to play soccer!!! ((: Thats how i get sunburn... Played from 9plus till about 12plus... Came home, makan, shower and slept till about 5plus... Than suppose to go raining but than raining, so went to hougang mall to meet my 1st bro and 4th bro to makan the pizza hut... Ordered 2 reg pizza and some drumlets... Shiok! But the bill also quite shiok... LOL! 50+ But my 1st bro treat((: Than we went to lan tgt... Played dota!!! Hahaha... Me and my smaller bro rape my 1st bro... Hahaha! ((: But while playing the 1st game halfway, blackout sian! knn waited like 20mins can! Cb! Than came back home and watch tv... ((: Okay now i'm heating up and the burn's starting to hurt... Anyone wanna help me? I got no lotion to apply... )):
I guess tmr i gotta go buy le... Cause fri-sun will kena burn also... LOL! Okay thats about it guys... ((: Cya!
And Thursday i'm gonna watch Gamer!!!! Anyone wanna come? Before that, i'm going to shop again!!!! ((: Anyone wanan come? LOL! We can makan tgt too... Hahaha... Okay thats about it... Goodnight everyone... it's 12.42am now... Nights... ((:
My right knee is swollen too... It hurts... )): I dont want waste my money to see doc for x ray... )): But it's quite bad...
Sometimes once in awhile i would still dream of you, knowing that it still hurts, i wonder why does all these still happens... I know if i were to end up in the hospital one day, i wouldnt even wanna see you there by the bed...

2009-09-19T01:39:00.002+08:00

Shopping shopping shopping, here i come ((:
I'm so gonna be flat broke... )):

2009-09-18T12:25:00.000+08:00

Somehow, my blog background picture is gone... Hahaha...
But i'm lazy to find a new blogskin and i'm quite happy with this... ((:

Goodbye all... ((:

Oh ya!!! And my mum cooked dinner last night!!! After so many years!!! (((:

2009-09-14T17:14:00.001+08:00

Never Back Down Rocks!
I feel damn good with it... It always pushes me even more to the max... And i like it!
Woohooo!!!!!!! Yeah baby! ((:
Okay good day everyone...
And Happy birthday ben... LOL!

2009-09-13T21:33:00.002+08:00

Attended 11am mass today... Than went to rvm and had lunch... Yum yum... Than went to compassvale pri... Suppose to have 2 match today... 1 against airport police, 2 some malay group which play damn rough and foul the last time... But both didnt turn up in the end... So we vs each other... Had lots of fun i must say... Total joke the whole match... Except for some parts... But otherwise, we all had great laugh... Hahaha... Especially with my new skills... Hahaha! Than after soccer, went to ave 8 to eat... 1st time after so long i ate there again... i think it's been at least few months... Than came home early... and yeah... My right leg ankle havent recovered yet and it just got worst yesterday, and today... Today was cause of abraham... LOL! Yesterday was cause we went to serangoon street soccer court again to play... Hahaha... Sooner or later my leg's gonna die... Cause i'm starting to feel the real pain... LOL!
And i guess my heart may have a problem again... Yesterday i couldnt even run when i was playing... Today at least i could move a little more... Maybe it's time to see the doctor SOON... hahaha... Okay okay... my supper's back... although the time now is 9.42pm... Punggol nesi lemak!!!!!!! SHIOK!!!!! Goodbye!
Past few days i've been having very bad feelings... I dont know what to do but try not to worry...
Worst, i have been dreaming of *** for the past few days... Idk why the hell i've been dreaming of ***... But i hope it stops cause it hurting...

2009-09-09T13:14:00.002+08:00

Was having high fever the whole of yesterday... since early afternoon rested slept on my bed till late night... Woke up, shower in cold water, ate some cake and took panadol and went back to bed... Rested awhile and woke up to eat a little of my dinner and went back to bed... I was so drained out i couldnt really move... it took me almost an hour just to get me off the bed... Well, Thank God my fever went down in the middle of the night... Thank you Lord... Otherwise, i think i might have ended up you know where... I'm suppose to go doctor this morning cause last night i was too tired to move... But i guess since now i'm much better, why not just save my money... (: I'm going back to rest now... Goodbye all... Take care and God bless... ((:

2009-09-06T20:53:00.002+08:00

I got so many fk-ing injuries... And it all fk-ing hurts!
First was yesterday, played street soccer and fell down cause i gave my all to tackle the ball away from that fellor and i managed to do it but i fell on my left wrist... It was sprained quite bad till i couldnt carry my hand or lift it off my shoulder at all... Even holding my phone would hurt... Not to say the shower head when bathing...
Than today, Played field soccer vs Some airport police group... Si beh fierce... Fell down again and sprain my left wrist even worst, and alittle bit of my right cause my left hand couldnt take the pressure anymore, my left waist got some bruises and my left knee got some bruises too... Than played on and injured my right ribs... Kena cut and bruise... nb... Than played on and injured my Right ankle this time... Cause some fk-ing asshole, told him to stop cause someone injured, he still played on and run straight at me... So i fk-ing ram the ball and he still ram my ankle... Fk sia! So played on for about 5mins more and game ended... Si beh siong... So it's like from my top injured till my bottom la... Left my head... Fk!
1. Left wrist (sprain)
2. Left wrist (sprain even worst)
3. Right wrist (Sprain)
4. Left hips (bruises)
5. Left knee (bruises)
6. Right ribs (Cut and bruises)
7. Right ankle (Swollen and sprain)

It all so fk-ing hurts... Especially when i bath... The pain is like ****!!!!
Anw, tmr's test and i'm so dead... havent open my book to study yet... I'm super duper tired and worn out... Plus so many bloody injuries... It sucks!
I was suppose to follow my dad to batam yesterday... But i just didnt know why i dont wanna go... Maybe if i had went, i wouldnt have had so many injuries... Oh well... Goodbye People...

2009-09-03T14:00:00.004+08:00

I am so freaking tired... Didnt blog for so long cause i had no time or i couldnt catch up with time... And yesterday was so tiring that i slept from 7pm till about 8plus am this morning! And if my mum didnt call me, i would have slept longer... About 13hrs straight! Thats how worn out i am... Could have been longer... Anyway, Today i handed up my 2 projects... I am so dead... 1 only half way done... The other not up to standard cause no time... Haix... Tmr another one to hand up... If never do well only die... And guess what? I havent even started on it... How great... Anw, i'm finding it very hard to catch up with many things in life now... Cause there's so many things to do in just such short period of time... And worst, there's never enough... Okay guys, i'm gonna take a rest... Cause i'm still very worn out... Good day... The time now is 2.04pm! Haha... Nights...
One thing i dont get is why do people like to flirt around? I see many of my friends doing it... Be it handsome/ugly or pretty/ ugly... They're all flirting around... Some even when they have bf's/gf's... Why is the world like that? Oh well... Only God know's cause he created each and everyone of us... Goodbye...

2009-08-25T20:57:00.007+08:00

This week is really flying so fast... ): Oh my...
Tmr's wed, than thursday comes than friday's here and the weekend yet again...
Woah woah woah!!!!
Okay lets start with what happened on monday first...
Monday~ Overslept and therefore decided not to go sch... Than went to compass at 12.45 to meet emman to makan... Than went to help uncle chris at tuas! About 6pm finish everything there... Than went to AMK to eat indian food... Those who went the other time, you should know where... It's damn good i tell you... Who wanna go eat Indian food!!! Si beh shiok!!!! It's worth the money too!!!! Especially the indian rojak... Solid!!!!!!! Than finish makan at about 8plus... Reach home about coming to 9pm... Was planning to go out again, but couldnt take it... my body all aching like crazy... Especially my legs... I push it so much, when i was putting soap while bathing, it hurts!!! Thats how bad it was... Than slept early last night about 11pm...
Tuesday~ which is today, overslept again! At first i woke up before my alarm rang... so decided to sleep cause i thought it was only 6plus going 7... So slept... but somehow ended up sleep till 8.01am!!! Screwed! LOL! Than faster chiong bath and get ready go sch... Reached at 9.50am... Late by 50mins, but guess what?!?!?!? HENG SIA! my teacher on leave... so my CA take over... He gave us till 11am to study for our test... And i was so crazy about it that i didnt know what to study for i humptum everything but couldnt remember a shit... Than When test paper came, WOAH! Thank God, it was exactly the same as what i just copied! So i tried my best to remember all the answers... Currently, only got 1 wrong... But at most 5 wrong i guess... Total got 25 questions... How lucky was that? Thank God sia... ((:
Than finish my test in 15mins... suppose to be 1hr paper... hahaha...
Than break from 11.15-1pm... But at 11.45am i done makan le, so next lesson was lab, so all went to play L4D!!!!!! LOL! Till about 2pm... But about 1.15pm i cannot take it than slept till about 1.45pm... Than from 2-3pm, was break... sian went to makan again... LOL! Fat already... Hahaha... Than 3-5.45pm was lesson... I tell you, Hitch is a freaking good movie... Just the ending few mins maybe not la... LOL! SO WATCH IT IF YOU CAN!!! It's like maybe i learn something from it... But just i cant apply it in my life for now... Or maybe abit too late... Anw, decided to drop my that lesson's project cause i couldnt take it... Too siong already the amount of projects i have and the close deadlines... After sch, met emman and took bus back tgt... But so happen amelia was on the bus, so she ask to makan... So we went to makan with her near Serangoon JC there... Talk talk and relax... Than i bought dinner back for my family... Reached home about 7.15pm... And yeah... Thats about it...
Currently, this is how my next few days are gonna be so yeah...
Wed, Tmr~ Morning 9am start, but reach about 9.45am... Than start running for about 2.4-5km depending on my leg... Than go gym... till about 11.30/12pm... Than 2nd lesson draw draw draw till like crazy... Hopefully can do finish most of it... Lesson end at 4pm, meet emman and come back home, do work... AND I MUST COMPLETE 3 projects by tmr!!! If not I fail my course le!
Thursday~ 1 lesson only... From 9am-12pm... Si beh siong! Handing up of the 3 projects on that day! and THATS IT! Than have to start on my next sub project... MUST do finish by friday!!! If not die!!! But thursday night most prob going to watch Final Destination 3D!!!!!!!!! STEADY LA! IT'S STRICTLY NOT FOR THE WEAK HEART!!! But it's open to the floor on who wanna join us! Me and emman going... Hahaha... Should be watching the 9.10-9.30pm movie... At cinie... Cause there got more FEEL!!!!!!
Friday~ Fierce! 1 lesson only from 9-1pm... During that lesson, HAVE TO COMPLETE another project already!!!!
Next monday, another deadline for another project,
wednesday, another deadline for another project...
I remember got another 1 more project... But i forgot what and when to hand up... But i know soon... So i'm so dead... Hahaha... okay... Goodbye all...
This week is so gonna fly so damn fast!
Next week too!!!!
Cause next week mon sch till 10am only! Anyone wanna go out with me? Hahaha!
Tuesday No sch!!!! Anyone wanna go out too?!?!? hahaha!
wed-fri usually fly very fast... ((:
So yes, Thats about it, Mean while, all of you Take care and God bless...

See you all around! ((:

Somehow many things happened... I dont know what made me change my mind again this time... I got alot of things that are 2 sided... I need the answer Lord... Stop changing my answer please... Let me know what i should do and help guilde me through it that i may do it well...
And stop changing my answers please cause you know i've been through enough... Really alot of things on my mind and i dont know how... I know i still love ___ but just i dont know what do you want God... Help me please! Amen

2009-08-24T11:20:00.002+08:00

I was suppose to blog about my week last week from where i left off... So here it is, from wed- today...
Wed morning had pe... As usual, i went late... like 45mins late? Haha... Went to gym cause this time lazy play soccer/basketball... Jog 3km on the machine and do some weights training... Rested, and went for drawing lesson... Started doing more of my overdue homework... I'm so dead... LOL!
Thursday, Had only 1 lesson... Draw and draw and draw... It was really fierce... Than went to makan with emman and his 2 friends... Than while he had his 2nd lesson, i stayed in sch alone to draw... Damn tough i tell you... I really wonder how am i going to survive through all these shit and pass them all up in time... Than went home after that... Changed and get ready, met emman and went to watch the proposal... Damn nice show... It's worth the money man! LOL! We watch the 9.10pm movie... until about 11pm... Than rushed down like crazy to su's house to wish the mum happy birthday...
Friday, Had a make up lesson... So morning i overslept... so didnt go... Went to cut my hair, than went to sch for make up lesson... After lesson, rushed to orchard central to get our ear pierced, than went to novena... This week, i failed to attend the mass there... )): But still i went at least... Prayed for awhile and left... Went to su's place again cause i promised i would be back...
Sat, Fell ill in the middle of the night... Forced myself to get back to rest cause i knew if i were to last through the day, i must rest... So finally got up at 9.30am but couldnt get off the bed cause was really weak... Finally pushed myself off at 9.41am... It was really tough... Took a hot bath and rushed to church with my breakfast... Reached at 10.31am... Late but i guess many were late too? and there were nth much to do... Force myself to makan and drink... Than everything started at 11.30am? Register and stuff... Than classroom sharings and talks... Opened up part of my life past and present... Than dinner time didnt managed to eat much... maybe 5-6mouth? the rest gave emman... LOL! I just couldnt eat... I didnt felt like going for the 2nd part but i just force myself once again... Went there, right from the start of the P&W, i already wanted to cry so badly... But i held on so strong i didnt wanna even let a tear stream down my face... Throughout the whole rally, there were countless number of times how much i really wanan just break down already... Tears were at the very end of my eyes... I was holding them back so hard i told myself WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I EVEN CRY FOR FUCK! I numb myself so bad, i push all my tears that was really gonna stream down... I dont wanna break down infront of anyone... But anyway, the rally was good i guess... Sing my heart out... Every song made many memories flash back... They hurt so much i really just wanna cry my whole heart out... The worst has yet to come... So i cant cry yet... After the rally, went back to church, final facil meeting and left to go makan... Came home about 1am, bath and knock out...
Sunday, went for 11am mass, but this time round, i couldnt feel God's presence... Or maybe my faith isnt there at that point of time... I was even thinking of running away from church during homily... I went out to sit down and many things went through my mind... and i couldnt stop it... But something happened, and i managed to stop thinking... Went back in and attended... After mass, went to RVM to makan, than went for saas meeting...
After meeting, came home to change and went for SOCCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shiok to the max... I tell you, i ran for my life man! And everyone could tell i was running like crazy! i can hit at least 5km with what i ran man fk! Even when it seems almost impossible to run back in time, i always made it and do what i have to... I ran every single shit out... Gave my best and all i could... It was the best run ever since idk when... Really... Thank you God...
After soccer, went home bath and went compass eat... Slack for awhile thereafter, and went to meet aunty... It was a long talk... Didnt expect it to last till so late... i was just expecting it to like last for only 10-15mins? But ended up maybe 2-3hrs... Than cab home and knock out! KO!
Slept till 7.01am... Find it too early and slept till 7.30am... Couldnt get off and slept till maybe 10am? LOL! Shit ballz... Missed sch today! FUCK! now my 8 projects are so gonna die! SCREWED!
I thought about it last night... If i carry on doing my work at this paste, i am so not gonna complete it in time... Cause this week alone got so many that is final deadline! FUCK!
And what a nice start, the very next day which is today, i missed sch! FUCK!
SCREWED!
I wanted to back out for sat's dyd and people said i should too... But just somehow something push me and made me go and not back out... Really it was like a miracle... But yes i didnt regret it cause it helped me alot... And i thank you God for it... ((:
Anw, it's 12.07 now... and i got to go get ready... I need to go settle some major things!
I'll see ya'll around... Goodbye take care and God bless...
And i like my piercing! Hahaha! Bye bye! ((:

2009-08-22T01:19:00.002+08:00

This whole week was really shiong... Teared, injured, cried, and hurt... Laugh, joke, enjoyed, smile... Many things happened...
So yes, shall blog about the week tmr or maybe sunday... I'm rather tired now...
Today was tough, but i'm glad i managed to hold strong and not break down... I only shed a tear and thats all... I told myself i wont cry anymore, and yes i wont... So ya... Talked some things out again, but hopefully they'll listen this time... I'm off to bath and sleep... Goodnight everyone...
I Cut my hair... and ahem... Hahaha... if you see me than you'll know... LOL!
Goodbye everyone... enjoy your day... see you around... God bless...

2009-08-21T01:23:00.000+08:00

I am sad... Pray for my mum please... Thank you...

2009-08-18T20:49:00.002+08:00

Hello boys and girls... Decided to come back and blog again since i've nth to do now and things are getting better...
So yes... This is what happened for today...
Last night had a tough time... Not saying why...
Throughout my whole sleep last night, It was damn bad... Never once managed to even rest in peace... So many things was running through my mind i dream of so many things too... Now i know there's so so much things in my mind at every second... Really alot of flashes and zooms... Finally managed to get off my bed at 9.10am... Was in no good state at all... My whole body felt so drained out... Pushed myself to go have a hot bath... But thereafter, nth seems to be better... So decided to give the 1st lesson a miss 1st... At about 11, I became better... Managed to recharge abit, maybe it's cause i prayed about it... Than went to sch... Was thinking many times if i should go gym still or not cause suppose to go gym with my classmate's and emman... Decided to take the risk and pump... And I guess it's good that i went gym... Though it may drain me out for a moment, but throughout the wholeday, i guess my energy level managed to hold still enough for my to pull through? 2nd lesson was at 1pm... but went only at 1.30pm cause was in gym... Than 2pm ended, ate a whole lot of stuff... I know i needed alot of energy so i ate lots of noodle, plus bread and drink alot of juice, green tea and water... 3pm was the next lesson... It was a good lesson i guess... Cause it was about dating... The teacher showed a movie about it... I learnt somethings... ((: Haha... Than it managed to make my class hyper again and even into about it... I guess they're better now... So Yes, it makes me better too cause i was finding it really tough yesterday... Haha... Even when class was dismiss at 5.30pm, they still didnt wanna leave at all... I couldnt really be bothered to watch further cause emman was waiting for me since 4.50? So yes took bus 80 home... Stand all the way and change bus at rivervale plaza... Got home at about 6.30pm? BS with my friends till about 8... Makan and here i am...
Today i took up another project... It's really fierce now... I'm pushing myself to the limit to just bombart my time all away... Keep everything to distract me from anything even... This project is my another sub's optional project... But if i managed to do it well and win something, i wont have to do my next year's project and better still, Score an A for it... Yeah! So currently, i have 6 deadly projects in hand... 1 by this friday, 2 by next week friday, 3 by sept 2nd! So yes, i'm dead! Cause all these projects are so gonna kill me and all my time... I can do till even past midnight and i have to still be working on it... I'm blogging now cause i've just eaten finish and i dont have any mood or ideas to draw or do anything... It's really tough... And many people from my class are most prob gonna get debart... So yeah... Gonna miss them...
I've decided to take up this 42km jog/run thing... Idk if it's good or it's bad but in the good way, i'll be physically fitter and it's a good training for my track and field thing if i wanna get in... The bad is that, i fear to collaps cause my heart might fail me... I've never done 42km before... At most was 10km and i wanna die already... But nvm, i shall give it a try... So yes Take care and God bless everyone...
So now this is what Glenn lim have to do...
1. 5 deadly projects!
2. 42km run!
3. Get through all these shit!
4. ~!@#$%^&*()_+ This one i think only emman know's maybe daryl too...
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May God help and guide me through it all... ((:
6-10 are blank only i can see... So dont bother highlighting...
Goodbye everyone... ((:

Vroom Vroom Peeep Peeep!
((:

2009-08-17T21:46:00.004+08:00

Got so many things happened... So much things in my head... So much things i wanna blog... But just i dont really have much strength to blog... Class today was abit down... So many ppl sad, cried, angry, left, and many more things happened... Dear God, i hope things will get better soon... Cause each time all these happens, I'll recall alot of bad memories...
Today woke up late... Or maybe i choose to... Last night my leg was hurting quite bad... I thought i couldnt go to sch today... But amazingly, prayers do work... (: Woke up at 8.20am when lesson starts at 9am? haha.. Than bath and left house at 9.07am? Met emman and went sch tgt... Reached at about 10.15am with no work done yet again... So many things happened... Or maybe too many... I'm trying my best to be strong at one time, and on the other hand, i'm trying my best to help as many people as possible... It's the hardest i know... But it's a challenge alright... If i'm able to get over all these shit, i'm sure i'll be able to get over things faster or at least it'll help me to be a stronger person... Idk if it's good or bad, cause sometimes i think i'm numb-ing myself from all emotions... But i hope it's not cause people say that i'm happier now... Spend my whole day during my 2 lessons not doing any work at all but trying my best to help around and be myself and be strong at the same time... Sorry teacher... I've got till end of this week for 1 big overdue project, next week i got another big project which just started today which weights 40% of 1st sem... And currently i got another sub's Assignment in hand which due's on 2nd sept... But that one is really tough... I cant seems to be able to start on it... Cause there's just too much work and things going on and around... God, It's a wrong time for a challenge, But maybe you're helping me in a good way... I trust in you and have faith that whatever you're putting me through, i'll be a better and stronger person in the future for sure... So Lord, i sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart first... Be it whether i break down in the furture or not, i know you will help me through it all... Sch ended at 5.30pm today... Reached home at about 7pm cause had to buy dinner back... I was so worn out and so many things was running through my mind even throughout the whole day, that i didnt even wanna use the com or play games... I just wanna sit down on my sofa and just relax and try end the day in peace now, getting ready for the next battle tomorrow... I dont know whats in for tomorrow, but i'm sure it's gonna be tougher... Seeing tears coming down from people's face is really hard to overcome and to even help them... Cause i dont know why, but i'm sure i will break down one day... I'm just waiting for when...
So many things have happened, that i really wish i will never turn back or even look back now... Facing it all would be so tough now... So i guess maybe running away from it all my life would be best... I've managed to come to a conclusion that i shouldnt be coming online or facebook anymore... So i'm going to stop it all from effect from today... So all that i may do is blog and thats it... At most to most i'll be online only once ot twice a week... And thats most likely late friday night or just sat night... thats all.... So yes Goodbye all, And i hope all of you will know how to take care of yourselves... Cause i know many of you may be going through the toughtest times now but just to let you know, even though i may not be there physically for you, but i will be there just a msg or phone call away and this is for all of you alright? Now, Boys and girls, Go pray for your blessings and guidence Never give up you faith of hope in God... Cause he'll always be there to help you through... Take care guys... Goodbye... God Bless...

And for the 1st time, i didnt go to the gym and neither did my classmates...
But amazingly, i can feel my whole body aching... Guess i'm really worn out... Goodbye now all...

2009-08-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone... ((: Or should i say dear blog readers... Hahaha...
Ehh i shall blog about this week first than end with what happen today alright? ((:
Basically monday passed super fast... It was a public holiday... spend my day at home with BS... LOL!
Tuesday happened to be quite fun in sch... so ended 545 and BS companied me till the night too... LOL!
Wednesday, If i remember correctly, something happened... but i just cant remember what... But nvm, than wednesday passed quite fast too... Cause had PE! The person whom i injured last week was quite alright and managed to play this week... Haha... But this time, he came back for revenge and accidentally hit the ball on my side back... FKING pain i tell you! Than after awhile it was ok... Than went to gym awhile only cause was injured... Than was drawing lesson... I told myself that i must start doing all my overdue work le... Cause this cannot carry on... (Everytime i'll chao class or sleep thats why... Hahaha) I have to hand it all up by this friday if not i'm dead! I mean really dead!
My other sub also damn siao... One overdue assignment which is really heiong... And one current project in hand which is my Final sem pro... I havent even started!!!! I need to design a character... )): Fk! I'm not a cartoon person man... I wanna change course!!!! Haha... oh well...
Anyway, to get back to the days, thursday only had one lesson which was drawing... didnt managed to draw anything much cause i just cant seems to push myself on that day...
Friday chao sch cause i didnt do my work... LOL! Emman chao too... My small bro chao too... 2nd bro took leave too... LOL! Than evening went to novena for mass... I thought i was like late for mass? Cause on normal friday's, the mass there starts at 6.30 and ends about 7pm... But i reached there like 6.47pm? LOL! and by God's will, mass for that day was 7-8pm! Hahaha... Yeah! ((: Than attended mass than came back home... Makan... Played bs till 11plus... Than Went out cause didnt wanna stay home... Came back about 2plus 3... Slept...
As for saturday, Bs companied me for half the day and went to town from 7plus-12plus... Reached home shower and knock out le... LOL!
Sunday, thats today, It's the bomb i tell you... LOL!
Wanna know why? LOL! CAUSE I DIDNT SPEND A CENT TODAY!!!! IN DUNNO HOW MANY MONTHS OR YEARS I DIDNT SPEND A CENT FOR THE WHOLE DAY AT ALL!!!! Hahaha... This is just partially why only...
Than morning woke up... Bath and went for 11am mass... After mass had lunch at bedok with my dad and 2 bro's... Shiok i tell you the chicken rice and turtle soup there! Hahaha... There after, went for soccer! SUPER SHIOK!!!!!!
First few games win and lose... But the last 4 games straight in a row, we won all without even stepping out of the court! LOL! Today is the 1st time i scored so many goals in my life! LOL! We trash them like crazy la... Play a fool also can win... LOL! But sadly, i injured my wrist quite badly... There's lots of scratches... Si beh pain i tell you! My both legs 3 toes each all blisters till skin tear... When bathing FKING burning! And while playing soccer, i twisted my right ankle too... Now it's hurting quite bad... )): After soccer, came home bath and went for Thanks giving dinner... The fish was damn good i tell you... Shiok! LOL! Erm... besides that, was quite boring and ok la... After everything ended, left for somewhere to do something... And finally came home about 10.50? Bath and here i am! ((:
Okay... Tmr's both lesson are both overdue works! I'm SCREWED! LOL! Goodbye everyone... I'm off to sleep! And see ya'll around if i do know you or if you do know me... Hahaha! Goodbye... ((:
The next 2-5 weeks is gonna past so damn fast! Cause in 2-3weeks time, sch's ending... Than finding job time is here... Yeah! Money money money!!! ((:
I still havent decide to pierce ear or not... So how now brown cow? )): LOL!

2009-08-16T00:44:00.002+08:00

It's been 2 days since i've been having this feeling... I dont see any good coming... and i fear the worst each time this happens... I dont know whats going to happen this time, but i just hope you wont take her away... Yes Lord, i thank you for blessing her to be better... I know i promised you something, i'll try my best to make sure it never happens... I never did fail for the past few weeks... But Lord, during the next 2-5weeks it'll really be passing fast... So i do hope i can squeeze in the time to stop and put everything aside and come before you once again for you to bless and guide me through each and every day of life..
I know whats gonna happen and i know how to prevent it... But i just cant say a word...

I've been listening to this song - Straight through my heart by backstreet boys almost every morning or whenever i'm bored... It's nice... Ya'll should go listen... ((: I like it alot... Okay Goodnight everyone...

2009-08-15T14:52:00.002+08:00

Thank you Lord,
though it may hurt, i am thankful for guiding me through..
I'm gone... Goodbye..

2009-08-15T03:15:00.002+08:00

I just came back not long ago... Went out earlier on at about 11 plus... I didnt know what to do...
I pray and pray but still i dont know.. I'm tired and i'm gonna sleep...

2009-08-10T22:00:00.004+08:00

Today's public holiday... Stayed at home the whole day today...
Morning slept till quite late... like 10am? i was shock when i saw the time when i got up...
Than played com and slack about at home doing stuff... Went out with my dad and 2nd bro for lunch at 12.15pm... Came home and slack about again... BS company me today... Today was not bad... Than ate durian till crazy... had 10 but only managed to finish 4? Haha! the rest still in it's shell! Hahaha... i'm sorta sick of it for now le... LOL!
I dont know what to do... But i'll listen to some of you for once and give it some time k? Till than, Goodbye...
Thanks guys for everything... i mean everyone... who played a part to entertain me... ((:
Tmr sch starts at 9 and ends at 5.45... )): What a long day to go...
Wed ownwards gotta come home late le... Cause emman know's why! Haha.. ((:
Goodbye world! See ya guys when i see you... ((:

2009-08-10T00:36:00.004+08:00

Everything's just my fault k?
You blame me, my mum blame me, everyone blame me...
i shouldnt even care anymore everything i do also wrong

2009-08-09T13:42:00.002+08:00

My back's killing me again!
Today is national day... and Me, i'm at home now...
Went for mass today... After mass went to compass to makan kfc only ate alittle...
Than came home... Currently i'm not feeling so well... Back's killing me plus my head's having on off fever... My hands can be cold any moment and could be normal the next... Oh well... Fuck the world! Once again, learn that from charles so anything, *hint* BLAME HIM! Hahaha!
okay i'm off now... Goodbye...
Later still gotta go out... Most prob going town... anyone wanna come? ((:
okay Goodbye guys...
And a Happy National Day! ((:

2009-08-08T18:45:00.003+08:00

My daddy go out,
Mummy go church with small bro and gf,
2nd bro go learn driving than going out,
1st bro also out...
Left me alone at home... (I shall go out too and fuck the world!) ~learn the fuck the world from charles~ *hint* so anything blame him! Hahaha!
My back FUCKING PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
It's my spine thats hurting me like fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just wish all these pain could just go away la...
I dont want to see doctor about my back cause i dont want to waste my money...
my parents wont pay... so ya...
I want to get a new wallet... my tore since weeks back...
I want to buy new clothes to forget the old memories...
I want to buy new shoes cause mine's starting to spoil...
I want to buy new sch bag cause i've been using my for years...
FUCK ALL THESE! Glenn lim dont even know if he have enough money to eat for next week...
How the hell did i even end up so poor also idk...
FUCKING BACK is hurting so damn much! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As much as i want to work things out, it cant be done alone...

2009-08-08T10:55:00.003+08:00

This CANNOT carry on!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This morning woke up at 8plus cause i had so much anger in me!!! Really so much till i was fking pissed!!!! I was literally hate-ing someone... It made me blew so sky high that i couldnt cool down even after 30min!!! Finally managed to sleep again at about 8.55am... Woke up at 10.30 by my dad to go down take food... I really dont know whats wrong... I cannot seems to control that anger i have in me anymore... It's gonna explode one day... And it might be real soon... God please help... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's so fucking on off!!! I dont know whats wrong and it always just aims on the same few things and person!!!! FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!
I dont know what to do... I'm really drain out... My back hurts)): Fuck!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!
haix......... this really cant carry on... Goodbye...

I choose to ignore my feelings and senses cause it has reach a stage where you're taking advantage of it... So if you want things, speak up and not depend on me to listen to my senses... i knew something was happening but just i choose not to speak a word about it anymore...
At the rate things goes, i'm gonna hate you for life unless you speak up real soon and not wait for me to come to you... Cause never again will i be coming back... I'm gonna throw away everything on monday and delete whatever i have cause it's no point keeping from what i see... If you want, you work things out with me not me working things out... Goodbye... 2 days is all you've got!

I wish to get over things right now!

2009-08-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

Today was a boring day... Slack most of my day at home alone with BS...
Morning, got up at 7 but couldnt get off the bed so stayed on till 7.40am... Than went to get ready and off i went to sch... Left the house at about 8.40am cause i couldnt find a shirt... LOL!
Suppose to reach school by 8.30 but you know... As usual Glenn Lim's Always late for school... So i reach sch at about 9.20? Hahaha! Than slack awhile than it's GAMING TIME! Played facebook with some of my friends first... Than went to play L4D awhile and than Frozen throne! Than it was break than went to sit down slack... My classmates was power la... LOL! Not we win prize also just go up collect... Hahaha! Twice some more... LOL! Than after dismiss at about 11.30am... Came home at about 12.40? makan my macs... Than BS from 1.10-3pm? Went to get a afternoon nap since i'm damn worn out cause night cant really rest well too... Woke at about 5.30 and faster went to shower and off i left the house... I went to novena church alone today... Reached at 6.32pm! 2mins late but nvm la hor... better than not going... Than after mass, prayed awhile and went to AMK to buy my dinner... Chicken rice!!!! Shiok! ((: Than came home makan and BS again from like 9.45-10.45? Haha... I arent a addict... I'm just bored thats why...
Anw, mum i didnt tell you where i went and just said i was going out was cause i dont want you to know anything much... I didnt went out on a date... I went to pray for you... Even when you're scolding me so much i just shut up even though i didnt go out on a date at all... I just wanna live life quietly for now k? No more war no more gf's... i dont blame you cause i didnt tell you anything yet... My studies are going down... I owe the damn teacher lots of homework... Like maybe 6-8 pieces of drawings? And 1 overdue assignment which weighs 15%?
Idk how to handle it for now but i'm really trying my best to push myself le... Seeing so many things happening is really taking a toll over me... Maybe thats why the priest said to just let things be...
God, did you happen to give me another gift now? Why am i reading so many people's mind... Even random thoughts? Sometimes i dont even have to be with that person also i can know whats that person thinking or want to do...
The gift that i have is already making me very worn out... My back really hurts and i really just wanna take a day off to just have fun, be happy and go crazy... Whatever it is... I'm not asking for weeks or months... Some help here? I know you've been trying to make me happy through many ways God... But sometimes somethings are just meant to be so leave it alone k? I dont wish to further carry on anything that got to do with it as much as i wanna be angry about it, i cant but nvm i'll just let things be and continue with life alright? I'll continue to constantly pray... I'll try my very best to not skip even one friday to go novena k? I know i had a deal with you... But sometimes just give me a break? I know you got none... But try? When the time comes, i hope you'll let me know before it happens... I'm trying my best already...

And God, regarding what i've been praying for, i hope you'll bless and guide me... Thank you...

2009-08-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

I really dont know what to do already la fuck!
God, last night i had a dream... As much as i dont wish for it to happen, i can see it happening... Please help me here before something really happens... I really dont know... Are you giving me signs of what i should do? OR is it just i've been controlling too much? Last night was bad enough... I have been finding ways to let it out already... Please help here? My back has been hurting for quite sometime... I hope it'll be ok soon... I dont wish to carry on this battle... But why are you making me fight it still? I've already seen the future and know what'll happen... But why, why must you still want us all to suffer this way? Help us all please?

2009-08-06T19:10:00.004+08:00

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It's Down somewhere...

2009-08-05T19:23:00.005+08:00

Today woke up quite late for school cause i woke up afew times last night... Dont wanna say why, but i gave up holding my phone at 4plus A.M. and put it aside...
Went to sch and played soccer... Woah kena trash sia fk... Hahaha... Maybe cause we all 1st time play tgt la... not much team work and dont know what type of style and placing of ball each person wants... Hahaha... I injured someone's leg till quite bad today... he cant really walk properly after that... I also kena injured my hand kena cut... Hahaha! Thereafter, went to gym to meet up with the rest who i was suppose to gym with... They did good without me today... Hahaha... Did abit of weights and went down to makan... ((: After makan, got drawing lesson... but guess what? I didnt draw anything... Hahaha... Than makan again about 1 hr 40mins later... LOL! Than came back to class and sleep... LOL! Woke up at 3.15pm and class dismiss at 3.20! ((: Came home, use com awhile and went to climb stairs and running... Seriously i think i deprove alot... I better buck up if i wanna join the inter school track and field... But one thing to lose out is, I WILL SHRINK FURTHER!!!! )): idk how lei...
Rather than that, i've been home after sch most cause my mum's sickness is getting worst each day... Last night she went to see doctor... So i hope she'll get well soon... Please pray for her... Thanks...
This friday i'll be going to novena church for the 6.30pm mass again... Feel free to join me if ya'll want... Sms me if you're coming...

I dont really know how to treat you or how to handle you... I dont know what else to expect from you... But i know you basically told me nth?!? What i know is what i think or what i feel only... God can only help me/us this much and the rest is up to you... You wont know how it feels and hard it is to think through each and everything for an answer by MYSELF for so damn bloody long... You dont know how confuse i am! I still really dont know to just wait and TRY be normal, or just try my best to just forget you... I have no answers at all really none... Yes, we may have talked and settle to be friends... But you not telling me if you would be back or what makes me really confuse and lost... One moment its this and the next moment, you're that... I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE CAN I DO... God, Please help me once more... Amen...

2009-08-03T21:41:00.002+08:00

I'm so worn out physically... My body's aching and feeling the stretch even with the slightest movement at times... Both my sides at my waist are pulling quite bad... Even when i was resting in the afternoon just now i could feel it even when i'm asleep...
I just hope that by resting more, i will be better soon...
Tmr's lesson ends at 5.45... How sucky can it be? )):
My finger still hurts... Even better right? Sch ends at 545 plus finger still so bloody pain)):
IDK if i should still go ahead and pierce my ear since already so many shit going wrong...
My back spine hurts too...
I want/need a massage!!!!!!
My legs are getting weaker, but still can tahan at least...
Goodbye all... I'm off to play BS with deirdre le... Raph sleeping Chels resting Emman FLIRTING! HAHAHAH! LOL!

2009-08-02T22:50:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps! My day has been okay i guess... Besides my cocky phone which is now ok... Like finally... LOL! Technology wanna play with me, i shall play with it... ((:
Anw, today served 11am mass and there after had lunch with the guys and abraham and henry...
Than went home to change and went SOCCER!!!! Balls it was quite fun today... But the fk-up thing is that my finger kena hit by the fking ball and it bleed!!!! Quite badly actually... Idk what to do besides just putting it under the tap and thats it... Hahaha! Now still got the blood stains but idk what to do le... Anyone knows?!?! Anw, After soccer went to plaza to watch them makan... Than slack awhile and I'm back home((: Had dinner and bath... Played BS with raph, emman, deirdre...
Now it's time to go bed i guess... ((: Goodnight guys! ((:
Great company today... Anyway, Thursday night me and emman going watch ice age 3... Anyone wanna come? It's just 6bucks... Most prob watching 6or 7plus movie... Cause somehow watching in the night got more feel... LOL! Okay... Msg me if ya'll want... Goodbye! ((:
I really need to do lots of work! If anyone wanna study or slack can call me! ((: I need destress too!
stupid drawing so damn hard... )): Okay okay i g2g sleep le... Goodbye... Here are the pic of my bloody tumb... OUCH! )):
Somehow the phone abit cock up still so forget about the pics... Sorry and Goodbye...

I dont know to tell my parents or not...
I'm also sick and tired of it whenever they say anything about it...
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2009-08-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

Dear God,
May whatever happens tomorrow be my final answer... Bless and guide me through each and everything so that in life, i would regret no more... Especially tomorrow's decision...

Amen...

Well basically my pocket now has quite a big hole... (Meaning i'm quite broke)
My wallet tore and i havent got the time and money to go look for another one... Maybe when i really no choice than i'll see how... i'll make use with what i have now wisely...
Finally got my shaving blades after so damn long? like maybe 2-3months? Could have gotten cut easily with my old one please... Cause one of my blades out of the 5 was bend...

So basically life's been fine i guess... I've just gotten my 1st sem final project last friday... It'll drag for a total of 5weeks till the end date... I hope to be able to do well for it... If anyone wanna meet up to study/do work tgt, feel free to call/msg me... ((:

I'm most prob gonna pierce ear on monday... Maybe dye hair sometime after exam? or something like that? It's time for another new look for another new me... Anw, I had a long day and i guess i'm going to bed now to let this day come to an end and start the new day when i wake up tomorrow morning...

Sometimes, there's just a limit to everything... Everyone's different i know... But God, why must you create humans till so differently... Why must our characters be like that?
Is it because of so called "Face"/Pride/showing off to/about others that we are now here and who we are? I really wish that the person i love was never like that... I hope and pray for the best...
Sometimes i wonder why do you have to take away people whom we love most? And also Sometimes i wonder why do people change? Maybe God, you'll let me know why one day things are ment to be like this... But one thing for sure, I lived my life to the fullest and i'll never have anything to regret in life left if i have to go... I've done all i could and pushed myself to the limit of almost everything for the past few months/years... Especially the past month or so... So Dear God, I hope i havent disappoint you and may you Bless and Guide each and everyone of my dear friends...

Amen...

2009-08-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

God, i dont know what to do... please help me...

Amen...

2009-07-28T23:11:00.002+08:00

Stomach ache! )):
I'm gonna have a nice hot bath and i shall go sleep soon... ((:
And guess what?!?!
THERE IS NO F**KING EXAM TMR!!!! It's only some "TEST" to test my online account and play around online!!! F*CK! Scare me and the whole class sia.. Fk! Hahaha...
But the shity thing is that friday is my ADP 1st semester final project start date!!!!!!
Oh no! *Big headache*
The toilets calling for me to let go my bomb... Goodbye guys! ((:
See ya'll around...
Stupid sch ends at 5pm tmr cause of the "test"...

2009-07-27T21:50:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling very very cold... I think tonight might have another attack...
Last night already having some problems... I'm going to turn in early tonight...
I had a long day already...
Tomorrow i need to find somewhere to study... Either that at most i'll go home to study...
Wednesday is my exam... I am so screwed... Will anyone help me? Oh well... Guess not...
I really hope to do well or at least pass with a B for my this exam... )): I've been trying so hard and fighting so hard for everything... I really hope for the best from now on for my studies..
Goodbye...

2009-07-26T18:50:00.004+08:00

Well, i'm happy that finally we've got things sorted out...
Now girl, go and be free like a butterfly...
Fly without worries and live life like there's never a next...
Cry like a baby and roar like a lion...
Go and be happy for now you are free...

Let go your worries and go be your girly
For you never know when things might come to an end,
so play while you can and fly as far as you can...

I'm sorry...

2009-07-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder why must all these happen... Why!
Haix... i don't want anymore things already... Time and time again never, and i say never did i see a ______...
I've been thinking a lot about it and gave it a big thought...
I've gotten my answer and all i can say is i hope for the best...
Goodbye...

Enough is enough...
It's a world of difference...
Life would never be the same again...
Either one wouldn't be happy...

2009-07-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

Screwed!

I just wanna forget it all but i cant!
I wanna hate but i cant!
Life is just so unpredictable... if you get what i mean...
I hate it all... Goodbye world... Life sucks...

2009-07-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

I waited so long trying my best to do things to keep me occupied... but never did i expect to get it 3 days in a row... I'm having fever and a very bad headache but i waited... I'm giving up and gonna rest now... Goodnight... God bless

2009-07-21T21:04:00.002+08:00

I got very bad headache for the whole day! I dont know what to do... )):
i hope someone can help me! Goodnight! i shall sleep early tonight again... my eyebags are super heavy...

2009-07-20T20:50:00.002+08:00

All i can say is life isn't easy and at the same time, i'm trying my best alright...
I feel like giving up and letting go of something... But i don't know...
God please help...
I am very very tired and worn out... Each night i would turn in to bed dead tired and worn out...
Especially weekdays i find it really tough to wake up for sch even though i only have to wake up at 7.30am every morning... I need a huge recharge... And old problem maybe back and thats my leg injury... I felt that pain today after so long... I hope it's just for a short period of time...
Now lets blog about today k?
Morning emman woke me up at 7.40am Thanks, Than went to shower and out of my house at 8.30am... Met him on the bus and left for sch tgt... Today can say was the most productive or work done since this term start? 1st lesson, managed to complete my 3rd assignment which took me like 2weeks to do?!? Than was break was slacking... Than was drawing lesson... Managed to draw quite abit than played((: Yeah! ((: Than also after sch today i came home straight after buying dinner... It has been so long since i'm back home for dinner and spend some time at home with some of my family members and not just come home to sleep... I am very very tired... it's 9.02pm now... I guess tonight i'll sleep about 10-10.45pm? ((:

2009-07-16T22:03:00.002+08:00

You not happy i not happy
You bad mood i bad mood
I pissed you also pissed
I dont know what else la...
I dont know what else to do...
Fk the one way thing la... Till now i cant even figure out what the hell is it! You dont even seem like you care la... even if you ask also like cant be bothered like that... i dont know what else to do or what do you want...
Each day my mind is running more wild...
And soon i'll have enough of it... Please just do something about it before it's too late k? (If you want)
My day was bad and so was sch... But only one thing i like and thats the food...

2009-07-15T17:13:00.002+08:00

I really don't want anymore things...
Just go... and so be it...
if i can, i would cause i wouldn't wanna be here...
It's really not easy and worth it... But why the hell am i still here?
Cause i just cant ..............!!!
i hate ******! Goodbye...
Everything's just gonna be the same again...

2009-07-15T00:09:00.001+08:00

I really dont know la!

2009-07-13T14:07:00.004+08:00

I dont know what to do... To just push everything away or just take whatever that comes my way...
I dont want to regret anything... And i'm having enough of almost everything... My temper's running short and i dont want to shout or fight with anyone... My mind has been filled with so many stuff that sometimes i just wanna forget it all... why must all these happen? my life was great and there was always things to look forward to through each day... But now i wouldnt even wanna know what might be happening next... Cause just when i wanna do something, something will happen and i'll just change my mind again... I really hate it!
Whoever that has been ignoring my smses, i hate you
Whoever that has been selfish, i hate you!
Whoever that has been adding stress to me, I Hate you!
Whoever that has been irritating me, I Hate You!
Whoever that has been fk-ing unfair to me, I HATE You!
Whoever that has not been considering my feelings, I HATE YOU!!!
I dont wanna do anymore things!!!!!!!!!!

All i want is for you people to make up your mind!
WHATEVER IT IS! Decide Yourself! Dont tell me Dont know OR WHATEVER!
Now, I HAVE ENOUGH! Next time anyone tell me Dont know, I WILL FKING BOIL!!!
If you dont like anyone saying "Dont Know" to you when you ask a question, THAN STOP DOING THAT TO ME!

2009-07-11T15:57:00.004+08:00

I only have 1 night to try relax as much as i can...
I have to by hook or by crook, gotta do finish my assignments tmr...
I really hope i can... It's not just hope, but MUST!
I don't know how am i going to do it with so much stress and headache...
I really wish to drop everything behind and just pick up whatever i have to and just continue my journey... Everything's just adding on... And it's only just the beginning of some/most things... I don't know how am i going to last but i know there's somethings that gotta be done and over with now!
blabbered some of my stress out to michelle last night... I don't really know what i was blabbering, But it was something alright... And also, Thank you emman for like company-ing me through the whole day, Maybe i company you but ya... At least there was company... And also, Thank you susu for playing cards with me for awhile... It made me better((: Funny how you shoot cards... And also, Thank susu's mum for talking about the kampong days... It made me burst out in laughter... Hahaha... ((:
Lastly, Thank you everyone who has been there for me all these while... ((:
Anw, This morning woke up and went to have breakfast with my dad and small bro... Than came home and slept again... Stupid stress and headache! Now, i'm gonna try play a new game to try destress! ((:

It was a bad dream and it felt so real...
Idk what to do when it happens...

2009-07-08T20:52:00.005+08:00

Today sch was boring i guess... I learn nth at all... This is what happened...
Morning woke up late again, but still went to sch... Managed to get attendance for 1st lesson...
Than sit down at canteen for about 1hr 40mins? WTF right? Than next lesson, was drawing... I didnt draw at all? LOL! Tmr go sch only from 9-11.45am? And it's drawing lesson also... Idk what am i going to do after that also... Oh well... Anw, now i'm just waiting for my dinner to come back only... And well, Life has been full of ups and downs thats all i am going to say...

I do miss you
And i really understand everything k?
Look at the bright side,
We still get to hug and joke with each other(:
If you're having troubles and need time alone,
It's ok
I just hope you can share it with me soon.

2009-07-06T11:45:00.002+08:00

Hello world... ((:

Heh... It's been afew days since i've blogged... And during these few days, there were so much changes and Prayers answered... ((: Praise the Lord... And i really thank God for it... For all the blessings and everything... ((:

For all those that have been helping me through all these times and been there by my side especially whenever i'm in need of someone, i really thank you from the bottom of my heart... ((: And you know who you are... ((: Even the slightest bit of help you gave would mean the alot to me... Thank you... ((:

Anw, i'm very worn out... Now's 11.51am... I'm suppose to be in sch today at 10am... but apprently, i was so worn out and tired than i couldnt get off... So next lesson's at 2pm... Maybe i'll end at about 4plus latest 5?
I feel that i shink further today... I can feel myself so weak and grew smaller... idk whats wrong also... Maybe cause yesterday soccer i ran quite alot... Cheong uh! fuck those fuckers! Hahaha... ((: But really fun la... enjoyed myself playing a fool... LOL! Raph also join in the fun... Hahaha! but abit only la... he celebrate with me the ball fly out... Haha... LOL!
Anw, came home last night at about 1.05am... Bath and slept... Than this morning fail to get up to go sch lor... too tired... hahaha... okay thats about all... Goodbye everyone... Pray alright! Keep your faith up... ((: Thank you God! ((: Love you... ((:

Bye everyone... ((:

Love you too... ((:

2009-07-03T22:26:00.003+08:00

Just got back not long ago...
I'm so tired... Really tired of so many things...
Well, at least today was okay i guess...
tmr got so many things not confirm... i dont know what to do or which to choose...
Argh!
I hope things get better soon... I have enough of so many things...
maybe it's my turn to show my ****-ing temper since i never did it before...
So many of you have just been throwing your temper and i had almost enough...
I really have enough of so many things...
I'm so frustrated that i wanna just shout at those to give me those problems!
I am so tired of waiting for this or that... I'm so tired of falling sick... I'm so tired of helping others and they never seems to appreciate it and even give me attitude for it... I'm so tired of praying so hard for so many things to work out and be safe so that everyone can be happy... I'm so tired of sleeping each night having to dream about the same person every night cause things cant work out! I'm so tired to even bother to do anything or even eat! I'm so tired of all your fucking excuses you gave for the many wrong things you did! I'm so tired of fighting each day to find myself making no progress but sometimes even worst! I'm so tired of exercising anymore! I'm so tired of facebook, tv, radio, sms-ing, talking on phone and EVERYTHING!!!!!! FUCK UH!
i'm so tired i just wanna sleep and never dream of anything anymore and there's no need to wake up anymore... Haix... But i cant... cause i know in this world, my mum still needs me... She's the only person that love me now i guess?
Today for the 1st time after dunno how many years, she asked me out for lunch with her...
And shockingly, today she was so different towards me since the moment she woke up!
She said good morning and all sia... Than went to have lunch with her at RVM at around 2pm? Came back about 3pm... We had macs btw... ((: Haha! I had Mac spicy meal upsize drinks change to milo less ice! ((: SHIOK! ((:
Well mum, i know i've never said this to you before, but you do know that I love you right? ((:
Thanks for bringing my into this world and giving me all the support and love and care and concern whenever i fail in my studies, feel lonely, fell sick, especially when i had high fever for one whole week when i was in pri sch, you hardly slept and you stayed by my side and come to change the towel on my forehead every few hrs even though you were so tired... Thanks mum... ((: You are someone that will never push me away i guess... Just that you get a little too annoying sometimes... ((: Haha... Goodbye world! ((:

My mum made me happy... ((:

2009-07-02T23:57:00.003+08:00

I DONT WANT I DONT WANT I DONT WANT!!!
Please dont take her away from me God...
I dont know why of all time must you hit me with this now... Haix...
Please God... Give me more time? I will try and pray more often k? just please dont take her away from me so fast... i will collapsed and lose everything if i lose her...
Stop taking all these away from me!!! I HATE IT!
I cant say anything i really cant... i need time... i really need it please...
This really just sucks k... and worst i cant do anything much now but try my best to prepare myself... I will try my best to always remember to treasure you each and everyday that you're still here with me by my side... I will keep praying...

It's not about you so dont worry...
Goodbye...

2009-07-02T22:15:00.003+08:00

i dont know why, but I miss you...
And there's so many things to tell you but i just cant cause it's not right...
haix...

2009-07-02T21:13:00.002+08:00

Something just hit me that something might happened soon...
And it isnt good... Haix... I dont know what might happen this time...
And i dont think it's for me but you... So careful...

2009-07-02T11:52:00.002+08:00

I had a really tough night last night...
3nights in a row le... (Just this time it's abit different...)
I just hope things can calm down soon...
I wanna put a bomb on my chest and explode it... Cause thats how tight it feels!
I find it very tough to just continue what i'm doing now... I keep falling sick on and off...
One moment my body temperature can be hot and i can feel myself breathing out hot air...
The next moment is i can be damn cold... So cold that my hand can just change to like it's ice cold...
There's so many more... I dont want to say anymore... I just need a break from all these... Give me what i need, and all i need is time and fun... AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do ask me out if you want to or feel like... no matter who... As long as it's nth stressing can le... Go play, makan or whatever... I just dont want to stay at home so often for the time being...
Sch's starting next week and i have a feeling that things will no longer be how it used to be anymore with my outside life... My chest is super tight and i have enough of blogging... I just wanna get out...

Honestly, i miss you and your hugs like crazy...

2009-07-01T00:24:00.002+08:00

I dont know whats wrong...
But i'm trying...
But without anything, i cant do anything...
So if you do need help, i hope you do let me know at least something...
Cause you cant always expect me to predict things right?

2009-06-29T20:07:00.004+08:00

)): I wonder which loser hasn't watch

Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen )):

Must be only left with me... )): I wanted watch it long ago DAMN BADLY!!! )): But )):
Oh well... Nvm... i'll just wait till it goes off the cinema than it should get off my mind by than... i hope?

My mind has been thinking and reflecting about certain stuff...
I hope to keep on be positive!
((:
I'm sorry for causing everything... ):

I shall go pray tomorrow! ((:
God bless me and guild me through all my thoughts and actions each day! ((:
Amen! ((:

My leg still hurts quite abit... It feels like alot of fking ants eating into my flash and some already got to the bone!!!!!!! )): Oh well... Who ask me! )): Bye... God bless you all... ((:

2009-06-29T13:04:00.001+08:00

I want play badminton! ((:
I want play basketball... ((:
I want go play water... ((:
And lastly, I want play bowling! ((:
Maybe i want play soccer too... depends on mood... ((:

2009-06-28T23:07:00.004+08:00

I've decided to delete some past post cause those are CRAP!
Finally i am happy with things now... Yes i am glad we can actually talk things so calmly...
Thanks to nic's mum too... ((:
And also thank you for opening up too... It really means alot and really alot... ((:
I am glad to even just have that chance of being friends and not enemies! Really!!! ((((:
Thank God... I'm glad i've been praying and really i guess that gave me my faith lev up by just one more once again after losing so much... ((:
Really now i treasure everything and know what to do and what must i not do... ((:
Thank you! ((:
I will constantly be praying for you and everyone... And if ever there's anything you or anyone need help in, please do tell me and i'll try and see what i can do about it... ((:
Life's GREAT!

I'm on cloud 5 now! ((: From -3... Haha... How's that! ((:
Thank you Lord for everything and I hope you will continue to bless me in everything i do and guide me through it all... Thank you for answering my prayers and showing me the light... ((: I love you... ((:
Not to any of you uh! Only for God... ((: Cause he is Good and he is great cause he answers my prayers and really does wonders... ((:
Thank you for guiding when i was in need... ((:

Okay!!! NOW TIME TO BLOG ABOUT THE MOST UNGLAM MOMENTS OF YOU PEOPLE! ((:
Watch and see... Hahahahahaha! ((:

SHIT!!!! Got problem loading up chels picture... So maybe next time... i lazy to change computer to load it up... Still got raph, emman, martina, WHO ELSE I WONDER?!?!?! You neverk now who may i get... Hahahaha! Just for fun only la... Soon soon... ((:

Sch's starting for most of you tmr... So good luck and all the best...
Maybe can see ya'll when my sch start or what to go out have a drink or do work tgt lor... But i tell you first uh... I only can draw... Dont come ask me maths, sci or whatever nonsence... LOL!
Goodbye one and all... I am happy with today... ((:
Pray! Pray! Pray!!!! (((:

Oh ya i got a picture of my injury today... Finally after so long i bleed eh? Hahaha... Some of you must be laughing your ass off cause you cant wait to see me get injured... I was rushing to nic's house cause no time than went to climb the rail and somehow my legs are so weak than i couldnt jump high enough and my leg hit the bar to hard there were quite afew bruises but lucky only 1-2 bleeding wounds... ((: So here's the pic... ((:

2009-06-24T12:58:00.006+08:00

Okay... i just woke up only... These few days have been resting for more than 10hrs... Thats how tired i've been... Well, i've blogged about the buffet on friday and now i'm left with the cruise... And i tell you now! if you do not have friends to go with you, it's best not to go! Cause it'll be damn boring and the arcade there is like at least x2-x3 of Singapore price! Lol!
Okay here's what happened and later i'll add just some pictures of afew moments only...
1st day when reach, immediately went to eat... After eating, went to walk walk around and see the cruise left singapore... There after about 10pm, we went back to the rooms... Than i slept about 11.30... while my 2nd bro went for supper... and my parents and uncle and aunty went you know where... Haha...
Day 2, woke up took afew pictures of the morning sea... it was around 8am when i woke up... haha... Than got ready and went to makan heavy breakfast... Thereafter, me and my 2nd bro went to walk walk around and decided to borrow the table tennis bats and play... ((: I was not bad i must say... Haha... played 3 games at first and i wont 2-1... Than my bro not happy so played another 2 games and i lost total 3-2.. LOL! Than after that we walk walk around than went back to the room... Parents came back and brought us to lunch... During lunch, my 2nd bro met his friends and ask them out after lunch... So after lunch we all walk walk around first than went to meet my bro's friends in e board games room... Played for about 1hr plus and we really build the thing till damn high... like 30 stories please! LOL! Than we decided to go play twister! played one game and we all couldnt take it... LOL! So we decided to take pictures instead... Haha... Than after that we all walk walk around and talk talk... Than we ate dinner tgt and thereafter went for 2nd round at another place... Than we all went to a concert together... After concert, walk walk around and than went for a super cool show... With just balls he can do so many wonders! Hahaha... Damn nice and entertaining... LOL! Than after the show, went to walk walk around... the show ended about 10.45pm... Went to see stars... And took afew pictures... Than went for supper... After supper we went to watch the 12.30am movie, Red cliff 2... Haha... Not bad la that show... but just that when near the ending, i couldnt take it and slept... Cause it was about 2am already? Show ended about 2.20am and all went back to our own rooms and slept... Next morning woke up at 7am.. than went to makan breakfast... Than waited in there cause other places all pack to the max and there's the only place can sit down and still can eat... LOL! About 9am the cruise reach Singapore than waited for it to let us all out... About 9.45 the doors opened! I finally managed to get out about 10.05am! Than said bye to my uncle aunty and we took a train back for mass! ((: Thats all for cruise and that was really fun... without the girls, i wouldnt know what me and my 2nd bro would be doing the whole day... LOL!
And here's the pictures of some moments... Haha! Enjoy! ((:

2009-06-23T12:09:00.007+08:00

Okay i got about 1hr plus to spare so i shall upload the buffet pictures!
The cruise pictures erm about 1/2 of them my 2nd bro tag me in facebook le... so if ya'll want can go see.. ((:

So here goes 19 June 2009!!!!

2009-06-19T09:05:00.005+08:00

Hey guys before i'm gone, I decided to wake up extra early to blog... So yeah! here i am! ((:
IDK to leave a msg to each and everyone or to leave by groups... LOL! Fine since i still got about 2hrs till i got to leave house to meet e guys before i leave, I shall leave a personal msg to all... ((:

Lets see who do i start with first.......... Hmmm...
Okay... The guys than i'll see who else do i have anything to say to than... Haha!

~Raph~ Woow... Idk where to start... Haha... Past few weeks have been going out super alot to enjoy and laugh like crazy and sometimes even whacking up things like crazy or even striking at bowling the same time... LOL! Fun i must say... Haha... Too bad got no video or what... Haha... But dont forget i still got a picture of you at the dustbin! LOL! Okay Hope everything for you will go well while i'm gone? and Take care and God bless... Enjoy yourself with bangala((: I wonder what will ya'll do... Hahaha! Coming to think of it, only got 2 person tie ti to play with him or just go out walk walk... Cause he wont eat... Haha... Anyway tc and god bless...

~Emman~ Hello bangala! Hahahaha... Sup sup... past few weeks also keep going out with you uh... Every time got problem one... LOL! Hope from now on things will go on smoother for you and DONT forget what i've been teaching you since your last break... LOL! In life for a relationship to last, you really need that... Dont belive, go ask around which couple dont do that... Especially for a family... You got to have it to last and not to give up k? Good luck and take care of yourself... Enjoy yourself while i'm gone too... You can go kick 2 person soccer with raph or what than maybe you 2 can go YOUR hotel 81 at upper serangoon than below the 7 eleven to buy something IF ya'll need that! Hahahaha!!!! Jokes la... You also dont forget that i got a picture of you at the dustbin! Hahahah! Okay take care and God bless... Whatever i teach you in life will bring you far... Depends on how much can you accept it and apply it.. So yeah..

~Charles~ I didnt know you got come to my blog one so decided to leave you something too since we've been hanging out too... Haha... Though quite afew times i cant make it cause i got sch or other things on... LOL! Yesterday's bowling was fun right? Was i good at teaching you? LOL! Remember to bend low and not all balls need to use strength to get a strike... Haha... Arcade was damn fun too... Hahaha... Though i forgot who i bang down in datona... Hahaha! Basketball and shooting game was fun too... Hahaha... And lastly, i dont think you'll suit the drums... Hahaha... Not cool enough yet... I'll get a picture of the unglam you too soon... Hahaha! Okay take care and God bless... you guys enjoy yourself while i'm away...

Idk who else to write to lei...... Hmmm....

~chelsea~ Hah! Big backside! YOU! Haha... I hope things are better for you... You too cheer up and relax... All relationship sure got problem... depends on how calm are you to solve it only... ((: Always i see you damn panic when i see you doing things or when you lost anything... Hahaha... Sometimes try and relax and you'll find it much easier to find your things... Thats how raph always teach you and help you find things right? LOL! So relax... ((: You also dont forget i got a damn unglam picture of you... Hahahah! I'll blog it up soon but not now cause i'm still collecting... LOL! Okay anyway, you too take care and God bless... Enjoy yourself while i'm away... ((:

~Martina~ HAH! i actually didnt expect to have anything to write to you but since you've been tagging on my blog than find i shall leave something for you too... haha... Erm... YOU SMALL FART! go train up than try running after me next time.... Hahaha! And if you beat me uh next time i wont even lend you cream when your hand pain uh! Na beh! LOL! When your hand ok already than go bowling again la... Dont come give excuse that your hand pain again... I'll show you who's the pro! NOOB! And i will get a DAMN unglam photo of you soon dont worry... Cause these few days got no mood to take photo's of anyone so yeah... Try to communicate with emman more... like much more... i mean when ya'll meet... talk about anything also can... even anything that happened... It'll help in your relationship... Really... So yeah... Hope you 2 will go on smooth from now on... Hahaha! OH ya and lastly, good luck for your art! You got to draw more... I already lend you my things uh... Dont come make me ma lu uh! cause those are mine! so better draw well! Take care and God bless... Enjoy yourself while i'm away...

WHO ELSE?!?!?!?!?! No one coming into my brain lei...

Okay to whomever that i left out... take care and God bless... enjoy yourself while i'm away...
CAUSE, THIS IS YOUR ONE AND ONLY CHANCE IN A YEAR!!!! LOL!
Goodbye... ((:

Oh wait since now still so early, i shall blog about yesterday... ((:
Yesterday we all met at 12.30 at compass... BUT!!!! for 3 person who came late, YOU SUCK! jokes... hahaha... one was 16mins late the other was 17mins late... THE LAST ONE WAS 31MINS LATE!?!?!?! WTFFFFFFFF!!!! Hahahaha... Than all headed down to ehub at pasir ris and i went to book the bowling lanes cause it was full as usual... Than charles came and we all went to makan at the kopitiam... or kofu la... whatever... I went to get my food at macs and came eat with them... Than about 2.40pm we went to go Bowling! ((: Got out 2 lanes and YEAH it was Fun for somepart alright... Hahaha... Nth very funny happened during the bowling but monday during the servers outing the bowling was damn funny though... Than after 2 games of bowling, we all headed to charles house and slack around... Sit down talk cock, play cards and whatever la... Than left and went to whitesands to makan and ARCADE!!!!!! SHIOK! Long time never been there... Hahahaha... Played datona, basketball, and some shooting game... ((: Than after arcade, we sat down at macs awhile to chill out than all left for home... ((: On the way home blah blah blah... Hope things are better for ya'll now... If you know who i'm talking about... okay... Goodbye take care and God bless... ((:

Oh ya! EMMAN! CAN YOU GO CREATE A BLOG?!?!?! LOL! You're the only one that dont have a blog!?!?!?! LOL!

2009-06-17T22:00:00.002+08:00

Fucking pissed! And Enough!
If you want msg, dont come msg than half way dont even give a reply...
If wanna talk online than dont talk halfway than go offline without saying anything...
If you want to call, than dont give attitude...

IF I WERE TO DO THIS TO YOU?!? How will you feel?

Imagine you msg me than i dont give a reply or just reply halfway and stopped never reply anymore...
Imagine you talk to me online than i type abit and suddenly went offline without saying anything...
Imagine you call me and i give you attitude... How will you feel?
Cause thats what you've been doing to me and you know i hate people doing that!
If i really didnt **** you that much, i wouldnt even CARE!
Do you even care about me?!?!?! The answer? NO! Why? When i really needed you and tell you, what were you doing?!?! Where were you?!?! I was shock when i know what were you doing...
When you needed me or just msg me, since when i didnt bother to give a reply?
Since when i reply half way than never reply le...
When you needed me to be there beside you, what did i do?
But when i needed you beside me, what did you do?
It's a world of a difference...
What you expect of me, and what you have been doing to me really is alot different...
I really hope you reflect about it while i'm gone or while you're gone bah...
If you still do remember what you said to me in sch during your lessons on the phone, well that still hurts alot... Why dont you imagine me doing that to you while i was in class and i said all those words to you... I wonder how will you react... Cause i broke down immediately...
Do you even treasure me? i can tell you the answer is no... You're always hot and cold towards me... and i really cant stand it... If you have seen me, i really have been constantly slimming down super alot... Does it even hurt you? Well i can say the answer is no... Cause of all your actions... Really... Never once did you ask anything about it or me also... Think about it...
When you really have changed and really treasure me, Than you come back and tell me that you've really changed this time and you really want me back... I just hope i dont changed than bah... Goodbye... And i'll be waiting...

2009-06-16T18:10:00.002+08:00

i really wanna go out... i dont want to stay at home anymore... )):
But i have to keep staying in the toilet... )): I hate the toilet...
Came back from doctor not long ago... After doctor went to macs sit down eat fish burger awhile and came home and sit in the toilet le... )):
Stupid toilet! Tmr hopefully i can go out...
I wanna play bowling again!!!!!!!! ((: yesterday 1st game score was 103... 2nd game score was 127.... ((:
Who wanna play bowling with me tmr?!?!?
Hahaha...
Hopefully i can get out first la without having to find the toilet and be stuck inside for dunno how long! Hahaha...
So sad... )): On the bright side, maybe it's a good thing cause i can stay at home more... Cause i'm seldom at home anyway... Goodbye all... it's about time to go back to where i'm suppose to go day and night... Hahaha... Bye..

I wanna watch transformers the 2nd part!!! ((:

2009-06-15T21:57:00.004+08:00

I am damn sick and weak... Fucking tummy all of a sudden can be so fucking pain that i will moan... For the whole of last night, i was really suffering like crazy... i woke up countless times to go toilet or either that my tummy hurts so bad that i'll wake up to moan... than fall asleep again... It's the worst ever... i woke up at least more than 20times!!!! This morning had Altar servers outing... i couldnt dont go cause there were already lacking of senior servers to take care of the kids... Throughout the whole day i went to the toilet afew times and my tummy was damn pain for ALOT of times! I really dont know how long more can all these last... )): I really hope tonight i can sleep well... Or at least someone can sayang me to sleep... )): I hope i can recover soon cause friday i must go cannot dont go... Unless of course i end up in the hospital... which last night i really wanted to wake up my parents to bring me go doc or what... But each time i move a slight bit on my bed, my tummy would hurt so bad that i MUST moan in great pain... )):
Dear God, Please help me and bless me through all the tough times... Guide me through everystep i take and bless me to make every decision that will outcome would be the best for everyone forever... ((: Amen...
I got quite afew pictures to upload... but not now... i am damn sick and still in pain...
Those people who i have pictures to upload of is CHELSEA!!! (Hers is damn funny!)
Raph and emman at somewhere sitting down! Hahaha! (Also not bad!)
Than i not sure who else... So yeah... Goodbye one and all... Take care and God bless... ((:

Friday is the 19th.. )):
it used to be the best day of the month.. )):

2009-06-14T09:59:00.002+08:00

i just cannot understand why...

i dont know how to accept it,
i dont know how to pull through it,
i dont know how am i going to get over it,
i dont know how am i suppose to get all the answers by myself...
and i really dont know what to do...
fight/run?
hate/love?
over/wait?
Haix....
Somehow i just wish that ..........................
IDK IDK IDK!!!!!
FUCK!
Predict this and that so what! Fuck!
Also cant do a shit to stop anything!
Also cant make me better when it happens! FUCK FUCK FUCK!
ARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck you all... i'm very moody so just go away...

2009-06-13T17:47:00.002+08:00

idk is it for me?
i hate it being hot and cold...
Soon time will flyby...
Whatever that i'm predicting it's sure getting closer alright...
2-6more months... And i'll see if it all does happens as predict...
Within the next month itself would be alot to handle and many things would come true...
hot or cold... irdk...
i really cant decide... If according to what i predict than fuck it le bah...
I'll just have to accept it and ya... 2-6more months...
I really dont know to wish for that time to never come or to faster come...
When cant just time stop at the best moment of your life?
Times where you treasure the most and enjoy yourself most with your love ones...
Fuck it all... So many people got so many powers but what can we all do about it?!?
SO WHAT SO WHAT SO WHAT!!!
i really dont know what to do... Dear God, please guide me as i live through day by day to be strong and positive, knowing what i'm doing and do it right so that i would not regret anymore... I still do not really get your msg... So please i hope you do help me and let me know more and how to tackle/handle it in the calm-est way possible or in the best way possible bah...
Amen...
Anyway, life has been quite good i must say... have been enjoying myself alot lately...
Spending alot of quality time and treasuring moments which i have been enjoying alot...
It has lighten up alot of things for me... And life's pretty good now i must say... Except the fact that i just need more time to decide on some things.. Tmr's gonna be a boring day but i'll see what do i have to do... Next week is really gonna be damn pack... Actually for the whole of this month and next month... Schedules will be really crazy and pack... Lots of stuff to do and settle... Maybe this is one way good bah... I really dont know how to accept things anymore... So maybe yes God has really been helping me... But is this the answer that i'm suppose to get? I really just have to wait awhile more till i get to know bah... within this period of time i should get my answer... or should i say i will/must get my answer... It's already half way there... So yeah... Goodbye one and all... Take care and God bless...

2009-06-11T23:29:00.002+08:00

Cant wait cant wait cant wait!!!! (((: Hahahaha...
Today went to sch quite late but attendance still mark present...
Than played cs with quite afew of my classmates... It was GOOD!
Trash asses there... LOL! about x2 their frags.... LOL!
Than went to sing post to makan macs with some friends...
Haha... My friend damn daring sia... Cause got 2 girls keep looking over... Than we started talking about it... Than the girls tell one of my friend who didnt really know that there were girls that kept looking... Than he went like: "Eh, you looking at me uh?" Than the girl was like " Shake head ya" My friend " Oh looking at him too? (next door my friend also beside him)" The girl was like " shake head ya" Hahahaha than we all laugh like crazy... LOL! Than got quite alot of girls keep looking over but it was quite funny la... LOL! Than after makan, headed back to sch for drawing lesson... Cut cake makan abit and sit down awhile and i chao sch with one of my friend... Went over to Cathay and PS to apply for job... Than ya... Went to meet e guys and headed to jurong to check stuff out! I wanna buy a new bag! Yeah! But no money... )): Any kind soul wanna erm... GET IT FOR ME?!?!?!?!?!?! Hahahaha... Cheap cheap only $48.90? Less than $50 la... Hahahaha... Than on the way back to harbourfront the bus ride was FUCKING long! Suppose to be like only 15mins but ended up taking over 1hr to get to harbourfront cause of the damn jam!!! FUCK! Than rushed home change and left to SJC to play badminton with my bro's and cousin... Damn fun... Won all 3 games... 15-6, 15-5 and last one was me one person vs my 2 bro's 15-0!!! LOL! Power! hahahaha... ((:
After badminton went to makan and send my cousin back than came home facebook awhile and here i am! ((:
Tmr is finally the last day of sch for the term!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!
Than hopefully i can get a job and WA LA! my holiday is settled!
Next week i wont be in Singapore le... )): Dont miss me cause, I WONT MISS YOU! Hah!
Jokes la... depends on who you are first... I will be eating buffet almost 12hrs a day!!!! WOOHOOO!!!!! GLENN LIM IS GOING TO BE FAT WHEN HE'S BACK! LOL!

I have been thinking alot about it...
So much where i'm at a point where i can no longer decide by myself...
So since i really dont have you or myself to make up my mind,
i guess my friends would be the one who would help me decide and
MOST prob it would be my final answer bah...
I really dont know how to accept it everytime when things can change
So much so fast...
God bless me...
Goodbye to Singapore for sometime!

2009-06-08T17:23:00.002+08:00

Glenn lim is

VERY VERY SAD...

To pi-pi-pi:

i really dk what to do...
And somehow i am crushed damn badly...
i hope you can help me and be there with me since
...........................................................................
i really dk what to do but to just close up and
be gone already... i will be waiting for you tonight k?
i guess i will be offing my phone for the night...
Only you know how to contact me...
Will be waiting for you...
Love you bye..

2009-06-03T18:22:00.002+08:00

What do i do now?
Why must this always happen to me?
idk whats wrong or what's happening...
one moment can be normal... but next can be so cold...
one thing i hate is being ignored...
Haix...
I think i should just be alone...
no more money to eat for the month...
Idk what to do..
at least my bus ride all is settled...
nvm... Cheer up and just live day by day...
Who cares what...
Anyway, these 3 days got drawing test... It's fking hard...
But idk what to do... tmr's the 2nd day of the test...
help me...

2009-05-31T10:28:00.002+08:00

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you've lost your way.

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe

Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes

There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

Every line has it's meaning for it...
And i have given my for all it...
Now, it's up to you how you're going to last through it...
Every mountain you're climbing through it, i belive that someone would help you through it...
Though i may be gone and no longer be around,
But if you belive in it and pull through it,
I will make it and will be back,
Dont give up because you know i didnt...

2009-05-30T01:09:00.002+08:00

I'm so freaking tired... But anw, today i really did enjoy myself...
Managed to buy quite alot of things that i have longed to buy since idk when man!
But now, i'm so broke... )): Pocket got one damn big hole! LOL!
Tmr or the day after, i still need to go buy jeans! hahaha!
Even worst... Another $100 gone... )):
Anw, Sat's plan is half set...
Sun's plan is not done...
Monday's plan is half set...
Tuesday's plan is half set...
Wed's plan is also half set...
Mon-wed all morning sch only! Hahaha...
But!!!! Mon after morning lessons emman coming to sch gym with me! Maybe raph too.... Or maybe nana too... Haha... Than maybe after that kicking SOCCER!!!! Tuesday maybe going gym again... Wed maybe going gym... LOL! Hahaha...
Thursday is FULLY SET!
Friday is also FULLY SET!
Sat is also FULLY SET!
Sun is half set!
One of the days during mon-wed most prob gonna watch movie... Anyone wanna come? you're gladly welcome... UNLESS! you are one of them! Than sorry no... Still thinking what movie to watch though... haha... okay... i g2g sleep... it's like 1.16am?!?! LOL! whole day up le... Time to nap nap nap... Nights everyone... Take care and God bless... ((:
I am starting to enjoy myself no matter what i do and i like it! ((:

2009-05-27T17:11:00.004+08:00

Hey guys... Today had good time man! Gym was SHIOK! So was Cs... Haha...
Anyway, Monday had my 2.4km... Fking hell i failed to reach my target so badly... )): Oh well...
I got 11.45... but still a gold.. Anyway, i'm left with only pull ups and shuttle run... Shuttle run wont be a problem but pull ups might just be a problem... Monday monday... Haha... Cant wait to get it all over and done with... Anyway, i have been having some good times with emman and some of my classmates... Everyone's very friendly actually... With the sup sup and hand sign all when we meet each other... Haha.. Anw, I have lots of homework to do... BUT i am so lazy to do it... I rather copy someone's drawing cause i'm only better in that... )): Oh well... I sign up for a job which my course was selected out of dunno how many hundred courses and classes!!! DAMN LUCKY! 5people in my class will get choosen... And teacher said i sure get in... It's Something secret for now... Emman know's though... Haha... Money money money! We both should be joining a CCA tgt sometime soon and will be training hard for it... I hope he will be serious about it cause i think i will be VERY serious about it... Haha... I joined Fitness as my CCA already... But the points is so damn low... So i'm joining another CCA to make it much better! ((: Sch work has been really tough... My energy lev also has been very weak... So is my skin condition... Emman suggest that since i am having so many fking problems, i REALLY should go and see the doc... BUT! i got no money... )): My dad keep on dont want to give me... Haix... What to do? Thats his money... Wait till i earn my own money...
So to continue about how my life has been, Rather than those pain,sickness and countless problems, I feel that i really have nth missing in life anymore... I feel very good and i am very happy with life... I'm not really intending to get back in a relationship anytime soon i guess? or maybe not for the next few months/years... Depending on situation... Since i know that i have finally moved on, I dont seems to be day dreaming or being so emotional anymore... And i also dont see myself getting back into any relationship until idk when... Maybe few years like 5? Haha... Okie dokie... Goodbye one and ALL! ((: God bless! Enjoy what you can! Just like me... Even if you once lost what you think was the most important in your life, it doesn't mean that you wont be happy anymore... In fact if you really do try, you JUST might be more happy... LIKE ME! ((: Byeeee!

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.

Love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who don't.

2009-05-24T23:39:00.002+08:00

Well well... So tired... Really had a long day today...
Morning woke up suppose to serve 9am but ended up got 6 servers than one late so 7...
so i attended 9am mass with emman... Didnt really pay attention cause of something that was a problem... Than after mass went down to canteen to help out and than home to change and prepare for soccer... Went back to church and help out and left around 12.40pm... Than went to hougang mall to eat and went to kick soccer... Seriously i expected us to win and trash them badly... But ended up cause of alot of mistakes and team spirit we ended up losing and kena trash... So yeah... Oh well... It was really a nice game i guess... Good experience... ((:
Okay thats about it... Goodbye everyone... Something just happened... Need to wait for my dad to sleep now!!!! REALLY NOW!!!! Goodbye...

2009-05-24T01:10:00.002+08:00

Yes you will be gone and so will i... Eventually one fine day all of us will pass on...
Just came back not long ago... And it's already 1.11am... I need to go sleep now... Serving 9am mass tmr than have quite a long afternoon to go! Okay something's wrong with my tummy... Damn pain again... These few days i hardly can eat anything... Sometimes even one spoon of rice will make me full... And i guess i lost quite alot of weight cause my sch pants is quite loose now... Maybe i'm having gastric... But Aiya who gives a damn anyway? Hah... Thats one good thing... ((:
Okay i really g2g sleep already... I have just quite afew more things to get over with and i guess i'm done... ((: I can see the improvement and so can others... So yeah! Life's Good! Goodbye... ((:

2009-05-23T11:10:00.002+08:00

It's Fk-ing boring i tell you... I dk how the hell did i end up waking up at 7.35... LOL!
maybe my mind is set that today has sch too... Anyway, Finally got off my bed around 9plus... And somehow time after that seems to be moving so slowly... OH MY! Idk how am i going to survive till night but ya... I will find something to do... Maybe i'll be going out soon to find something! ((: My plan for the week fail actually...
Monday i did went gym... But the napfa didnt had 2.4km... It's this coming monday... So yeah...
Tuesday had things on so didnt go gym... Wed wanted go but closed till monday cause of graduation... So yeah... Than today didnt go learn MMA cause erm idk why but i guess i just want to be a good boy bah... I know myself can already... And i have finally come to a point where i can say i've successfully managed to over come many things and let go off many things... And i'm glad with myself that i'm finally able to do it! YesSs! (((:
Okay thats about it... Later should be going to cut my hair... Or maybe i should keep it long...
See my mood later... ((: Goodbye everyone! Take care and God bless! YesSss!!! ((:

2009-05-23T00:08:00.002+08:00

Just came back home not long ago...
Only came to blog about something actually...
Anyway, here's it... To those 3 bloody MF-ers!, Though you may not know who you are, but some people know which 3 person i would love best to say fuck off! To maybe 1/2 It may be Fuck off B*tch! But all 3 of you are female that i can tell you...
And each and everyone of you 3 know just what the fuck did you did... So just Fuck off k?
Dont make me fucking screw you than you happy... If i decide to take it and not make much noise, Than just shut the fuck up... Even if i do make noise, you have no fucking right to say a damn word... because you have no right to!
Anyway, today was a damn tiring day... And i guess i did enjoy myself outside... I'm starting to like enjoy life i guess? I dont need to endure much about anything, I have alot more money now to spend and life's good? Hah! ((: Anw, i really need to buy a jacket soon... I know my own body...
And last night somehow i think i was in so much pain till i fell asleep... Lucky didnt die cause i havent spend finished my money yet... Hahaha... This morning woke up alot of the bops on my hand, leg and neck were gone... just left one lump on my hand... and alot of tiny mini bops on my hands,neck and legs... Haha... Glad to have survived that... Anyway, Tmr will be a great day again i guess! From now on, every sat night it's time for GOOD FOOD!!! And i guess i'm going to join fitness for my CCA... Good stuff i get to gain 2 in 1... I usually go gym like 2-3times a week and fitness CCA is to like go gym... Haha! Steady la! Maybe i'll join student council also since nth to do except erm... got hall talk... And i'll get 0.2 gpa points more if CCA gets A... Haha! So lets say if i get 0.2 for CCA + another 0.2 for council, = 0.4!!! If i get 3.2GPA for final year, total up will be 3.6!!! Can go poly!!!! YesssSS uh!!! Okay anyway, Goodnight to everyone... Take care and God bless... From now on, i guess life will be good... Unless those 3 ******* decided on some fuck up things again... Goodbye!

2009-05-22T08:09:00.002+08:00

I most prob wont be home today... So yeah...
Now i'm going to sch than maybe chaoing sch again and than go out somewhere alone... or maybe with someone... Not saying who but ya... Goodbye... Take care and God bless yeah...

2009-05-20T23:16:00.002+08:00

Just came back from dinner with my family and quite afew church people with fr james...
Well these few days, i hardly sleep much... I know i close my eyes and i feel like i am sleeping...
But just these 2 days i cant sleep well... Like i sense very bad stuff happening... Take example yesterday morning i dream something very bad happened and i woke up feeling like something VERY bad is happening... that feeling was like someone was really in need of help... Or something really very bad is going to happened... Well today i took my afternoon nap again and somehow i had that same strong feeling... I everytime just cant sleep in peace idk why!!!! Someone help me?
I'm actually not in the mood to talk to anyone... so please dont talk to me these few days at least for your own good... Sorry and Goodbye...

2009-05-20T13:45:00.002+08:00

I tried looking for a new blogskin but somehow it all sucks... shall go ask my friend how to make one and i shall create a 3d one for myself... Goodbye all...

2009-05-19T17:17:00.006+08:00

Well today i skipped morning class cause i had a damn bad dream about something...
And well Idk what to say... It's somehow true alright...
After things that happened especially yesterday, i guess i finally learn that i have to let go...
And i am starting to i guess... This morning waking up feeling my heart became lighter, makes me feel better... It totally felt like when i left her the last time and my heart feel so light... Now's its almost the same, but not as light... But slowly and surely, Things will feel better i guess...
You can choose to hate me or not belive/have faith in me, but i choose to belive that sometimes things are really that coincidental... Since none of my reasons are valid or something which you will belive, I really do have nth to say... Belive it or not, whenever anyone say things about you, i always belive strongly that it is strongly coincidental and i will reason out with them if you do not belive, go ask anyone and really anyone if i ever once never did reason out with them why things happened... Because i have the faith in you... Now since that it is proven that you have no longer have any faith/trust in me and including so little love left, It is rather no point to continue anything... My heart has been set and my mind has been made... Well things are really gonna be though, but life still has to go on...
Sorry for whatever wrong that i've done or ruined especially to your friendship with others and the bond you had with your family.. I cant turn back time for you, but i can disappear from you... There really isnt much left that i could do... Because i really did everything for a reason...
I know that you will not belive in me but i really did everything for a reason... Once was more than enough to make so much changes... Now i know why sometimes people say you may never get a second chance... I admit that i once really gave up on you because of many reasons and you do know why... But after that strong determination and love you had for me, things changed and i change myself completely... It was a total wrong mistake to change cause now i know you like the old me... I really did try to change for the better... After each time we fought, i would think to myself how could i make this never to happen again... Thats why i am constantly changing whenever something happens...
Life will never be the same, But somethings still can be treasured...
As i've been saying,
"It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrow, I can't believe that I stayed till today"
So this time, it may be true that i will be gone and move on... Whatever it is, i dont wish to fear it anymore... If that dream is really meant to happen, no matter how much i try to avoide it, it will still happen.. Because the only way for it not to happen is for us to fight everything together...
Anyway, after such a long time, today during class i feel like so much things changed... I feel like i am able to not think of her so much anymore... i guess it's because it has actually come to a point where i have to let go... Goodbye is all i can say and Take good care of yourself...

For the past 1 week i guess, my body tempreture has been rather low... I dropped by 1.0 it was originally 37.0-37.4 But now it's like around 36.0-3.63? But mostly 36.0... I dont know if my body has become weaker or not but i think it has.. Anyway, Sch work sucks quite bad... Lots or project and work to do... Idk how am i going to complete it, but i have to... So yeah... i'm off the climb stairs and go running... So yeah Goodbye all...

I hate people who ignores my msg or msg me half way and died...

2009-05-16T22:44:00.004+08:00

Hey guys... sorry for closing down my blog k? since there's quite afew of you who complained, than fine... i shall open it back again... Firstly i will be changing my blogskin cause it no longer has a meaning... Next will be some other things... Life has to go on... Things has to change... And So must i... Well today practically wasted my whole day at home than Thank God emman call me out at like 6.30? so went to get ready and brought them to my secret place to eat... Damn shiok! And they agree with me... me emman and murphy... we just ate $3 and it's like our tummy wanna explode le.. Haha... Shiok plus cheap where to find? Anyway, Man Utd won! YEAH! i cheer for them cause Liverpool didnt get the championship!!! YEAH! Anyway, Thats about it...
Monday's napfa... I'll try my fking best to beat me own fking 2.4km record of 10mins 11secs... If i can hit 8mins plus, I'll be damn fking happy! I will be heading to the gym for at least 2-3days a week from now on... But i plan to go 5 days a week... Some people say i shrink alot? But i will grow back again! But somehow the more i train the smaller i become... LOL! Anyway, Tmr i'm serving 9am than got training than got SOCCER!!!!!! I'll do my kung fu kick again! Dont care monday napfa how to survive but I WILL FKING DO IT! Yeah!
I have been getting C for my grades in sch... But i have so much determination in me that i keep redoing it for like 2 weeks straight and i finally got a B+!!!! Hoping to get an A but the standard if FKING HIGH! Alright boys, Goodbye all...
See ya'll soon... Anything can call me out to do work also can... ((: Just that i arent so rich to go eat so often anymore....
My Plans for the week...
Monday- Napfa! Than after that CHEONG GYM!
Tuesday- 2.4km jog/run Than GYM!!!
Wednesday- Gym!!! Maybe wear my leg weights to climb stairs like crazy!
Thursday - 2.4km and GYM!!!
Friday - Maybe rest day cause gym close at 1pm... )):
Saturday - Finally! go learn MMA from my friend friend! Yeah!!!
Sunday - Soccer match against Nativity!!!