Monday, August 17, 2009
Got so many things happened... So much things in my head... So much things i wanna blog... But just i dont really have much strength to blog... Class today was abit down... So many ppl sad, cried, angry, left, and many more things happened... Dear God, i hope things will get better soon... Cause each time all these happens, I'll recall alot of bad memories...
Today woke up late... Or maybe i choose to... Last night my leg was hurting quite bad... I thought i couldnt go to sch today... But amazingly, prayers do work... (: Woke up at 8.20am when lesson starts at 9am? haha.. Than bath and left house at 9.07am? Met emman and went sch tgt... Reached at about 10.15am with no work done yet again... So many things happened... Or maybe too many... I'm trying my best to be strong at one time, and on the other hand, i'm trying my best to help as many people as possible... It's the hardest i know... But it's a challenge alright... If i'm able to get over all these shit, i'm sure i'll be able to get over things faster or at least it'll help me to be a stronger person... Idk if it's good or bad, cause sometimes i think i'm numb-ing myself from all emotions... But i hope it's not cause people say that i'm happier now... Spend my whole day during my 2 lessons not doing any work at all but trying my best to help around and be myself and be strong at the same time... Sorry teacher... I've got till end of this week for 1 big overdue project, next week i got another big project which just started today which weights 40% of 1st sem... And currently i got another sub's Assignment in hand which due's on 2nd sept... But that one is really tough... I cant seems to be able to start on it... Cause there's just too much work and things going on and around... God, It's a wrong time for a challenge, But maybe you're helping me in a good way... I trust in you and have faith that whatever you're putting me through, i'll be a better and stronger person in the future for sure... So Lord, i sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart first... Be it whether i break down in the furture or not, i know you will help me through it all... Sch ended at 5.30pm today... Reached home at about 7pm cause had to buy dinner back... I was so worn out and so many things was running through my mind even throughout the whole day, that i didnt even wanna use the com or play games... I just wanna sit down on my sofa and just relax and try end the day in peace now, getting ready for the next battle tomorrow... I dont know whats in for tomorrow, but i'm sure it's gonna be tougher... Seeing tears coming down from people's face is really hard to overcome and to even help them... Cause i dont know why, but i'm sure i will break down one day... I'm just waiting for when...
So many things have happened, that i really wish i will never turn back or even look back now... Facing it all would be so tough now... So i guess maybe running away from it all my life would be best... I've managed to come to a conclusion that i shouldnt be coming online or facebook anymore... So i'm going to stop it all from effect from today... So all that i may do is blog and thats it... At most to most i'll be online only once ot twice a week... And thats most likely late friday night or just sat night... thats all.... So yes Goodbye all, And i hope all of you will know how to take care of yourselves... Cause i know many of you may be going through the toughtest times now but just to let you know, even though i may not be there physically for you, but i will be there just a msg or phone call away and this is for all of you alright? Now, Boys and girls, Go pray for your blessings and guidence Never give up you faith of hope in God... Cause he'll always be there to help you through... Take care guys... Goodbye... God Bless...
And for the 1st time, i didnt go to the gym and neither did my classmates...
But amazingly, i can feel my whole body aching... Guess i'm really worn out... Goodbye now all...
9:46 PM
goodbye...