Thursday, November 26, 2009
God, i've helped many people throughout my life wholeheartedly... Whenever anyone's sad/down and i know about it, i'll help that person... Whenever something happens to anyone and i know about it, i'll be there... But God, honestly i dont know what to do... I might not even get to stay in sch any longer... Well God, from my N's to O's and now ITE but still it's not for me? Almost everything i've done i failed... But without any pullbacks, i never let it overtake me for too long cause i know i could use that time to do something to make my life better rather than just being sad and making others sad... I've learn to put a smile on my face no matter what but these days, it's been getting so tough, i dont know what to say... Sometimes it's so tough that maybe i just wanna be alone for the wholeday... I want to be happy and put a smile on my face so much that i'm never tired of it... I might not have a sch next term anymore... and i dont know what to do... My results have been going down down down since sch started... Yst night my teacher msn me that by next term if my grades continue to drop at this rate, i guess i might be out... Few weeks back one of my sub teacher sat down beside me and ask me drop out and study something else he said so many bad stuff that i really didnt know hw else to carry on... After that day, i never once attended his lesson anymore... He used to find that i have a talent in it but just i havent push myself to get it out yet... But after seeing my results dropping so badly continuesly, he suggest that i should make plans for my next year instead of coming back to sch... Many things have been happening actually... Putting a smile on my face each day really gets tougher... I'm getting by day by day not daring to look forward and make plans anymore... Dreams it may be but it always gets smashed but it doesnt really set me back down but many other things... I havent been blogging for a long time... I really want to find some space and time to just be happy... God i belive that isnt a problem but just my sch... Help me yeah... Tks... Goodbye world... Sadness it may be, But i'm sure HAPPINESS IS AWAITING ME! ((:
11:16 PM
goodbye...
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Glenn Lim's gonna be on MTV ITE GOT TALENT! ((: But just for afew secs cause it's a very short video... ((: Okay i've lots of assignment to do and i've gotta go bed now... Cause it's a long day tmr again! So is this weekend! oh man... Okay guys, Goodnight! ((:
11:31 PM
goodbye...
Sunday, November 8, 2009
If you were to compair me afew months ago and now, who would say i'm still the same?
Thinking back, i realised that i've changed alot... Some is to forget the past, others is to try and be a better person... But i've realised that my temper has gone worst... I've been thinking about things and trying to find out how to not be slightly angry whenever something happens or not to even give the slightest attitude... But for some people, they have just taken advantage of me trying not to be angry cause sometimes when i think about the day's happenings, i realised that some people do take advantage of people temper... Anw, Played soccer today and it's quite alright i guess... ((: My cough's getting worst... cant run much now if not will cough alot... Today's soccer was more of walking cause i tried running but ended up coughing haha.. Okay i've got lots of assignments to hand up this week... Shit ass... Oh well, i'm trying my best to be happy now guys... Give me just some more time to adjust and i should be fine... ((: Everything's coming to an end soon... Dec's coming too and idk to go around with my mum not... she's been asking me to go quite afew trips to malaysia and afew other countries... Stupid school assignments! okay i g2g... Goodbye take care and God bless... Always be happy! ((:
9:38 PM
goodbye...
Thursday, November 5, 2009
idk why cant u belive me? You ask me questions and i tell you the truth, but just why wouldnt you belive me? Since young, you've always been like that to me... WHY! Always blaming me for things i didnt do... Always 1st in your mind when something spoils, Always 1st in your mind when you need help... Anything bad happens or anything that spoils, you just blame me without even asking the rest... And even when i tell you i didnt, or it isnt me, you'll never belive me till someone owns up... WHY! Why must you always make me fucking pissed! why... The world out there, all they care is themselves... Have you ever thought about the other person's feelings? Fucking selfish! Tell me since when did you ever though about MY FEELINGS when you did something to me? All you care about is yourself and still raise your voice when i just raise my alittle... You even fucking slam things acting like you're all right... WHAT ABOUT ME? Have you thought about that? Fuck all that k... I havent been in the best of mood cause i'm going through quite a shit k... And sch's fucking fucked up! Trying my best to run away from all the teachers cause the assignments are never ending! FUCK! You dont know the feeling of whats life now k... It's screwed k and i chose this road myself few months ago... And now, I WANT TO FUCKING U TURN AND I'M GOING TO DO THAT! I'm going to live my life of who i am and what i'm happy with knowing that i'll never regret anything anymore when i look back in the past next time... YES!
Sometimes, i get blaimed for things that are misunderstandings from my actions... Even if it means out of goodwill, in some others eyes, you maybe up to no good and they're trying to think what evil things are you up to next... Well, i've always lived life to the fullest and i always help others with my fullest heart... So incase if anything that happens and you ever have the impression or thought that i've done/doing something bad, come clarify it with me anytime, cause for sure it aint something bad... Yes, thats about it... Rather that all these, i've been falling sick for the past 2 weeks... Everything on off... fever, flu, rashes, cough, shorness in breath...
Okay everyone, i'm off... Goodbye... Take care and God bless everyone... (:
9:21 PM
goodbye...