To say the truth, i've been in a very bad mood...
Today i raised my voice at my mum... And i feel very bad about it... It was because of food... FUCK THAT FOOD! i rather starve now... I'm sorry mum...
My life's kinda screwed now... I know i can still turn back... But i just dont want idk why...
I'm just sorry mum... No more mood to blog... Goodbye everyone...
I'm dead tired...

God, i seek for your forgiveness... Sorry that i didnt go novena this week... I've been having lots of problems lately... Sometimes i just wish to just fly off and never come back... I can cry all i want there, cause no body would care cause no one know's me there... I really find it so hard to sleep each night... Since sch has started, it has given me alot more problems cause i couldnt wake up each morning cause the night before, i would have so much difficulty sleeping... Just last night, i was lying on my bed for 4hrs not being able to sleep... I just wanna work all my energy out so that when the night comes, i will just knock out when i hit the bed... I dont wanna grow any smaller... I tried forcing myself to eat alot more and work out less and stop running and whatever... But it's no use... IDK what else to do... I just hope the time come soon... Than at least i can just be alone somewhere where no one know's me... I havent been doing well in sch... Always late and attendence not mark present... Work not up to my standard and lots of bull shit... idk what else is gonna come in my way... But God, i sure hope you'll be there to help me through each and every part and day of life... Goodbye all... Time to go out cause it's boring at home...

I really didnt know why i made such promise...
All my life, no one has shouted at me. I really tried putting a smile back on my face but i couldnt... I'm sorry if i caused any trouble... And i have my reasons for going back twice...

Hi everybody, i only knew that many of you still return to read my blog even though i stopped blogging for a long time... I guess this is the only way sometimes some of you can know how's life for me eh? Well, dont need to worry actually, Cause i'm alive and still kicking! Hahaha ((: Today i stay at home to get new songs cause my songs was getting boring and old... Hahaha... So now which toot wanna get some new songs from my phone again? Haha... Anw, I had quite alot of injuries lately again, but alot of them are minor to me... Just afew are quite hurtful at times... Haha... For the past few nights, i've been having very tough time sleeping cause of alot of troubles... I've been trying to wreck my head to solve them all... But no matter what, i would not forget to pray for God's help and to thank him for everything including the daily life he's been blessing me with... Many things have been happening actually... Some people know bits and pieces here, others know bits and pieces there... So if one day they all were to know each other and blah blah blah, who know's Maybe they'll know everything... Hahaha... There are just so many liers on this earth... You tell me, have you ever lived through a day without knowing that someone's obviously lying? Hahaha! I bet even when you're are baby, your parents are lying to each other too... So yeah... I've seen so many liers, i'm so sick and tired of it... Sometimes i just dont even know how to trust my fellow humans anymore... I've seen so many people ending their relationships, that i even give up trying to help anymore... Sometimes i would even just advise r/s couples to just break up cause i just have no faith in there anymore i guess... No one could imagine anything i've been put through since a young age... I still can remember the day my dad just grab my hand and swing my around the house and just let go... lucky i landed on the cushion... And so many others... And sometimes when i blog about all these things, i realise that some of you would even share with me what you've been put through at a very young age... And i guess many of us would have gone through many hardships, but who had gone through the worst? I can say no one, cause not even i dare say that i've been through the worst or been put through the worst... So yeah... Never take life for granted, cause you never know when might be your last day... Anw, my trip has been confirm, i'm leaving singapore in less than a month for sometime and even skipping school for awhile hoping to start life anew when i'm back and forget all about the past...
i stumbbled upon this song quite some time ago and find and it's nice... so here it is...

the song is called, Broken-hearted Girl



You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

I'm left with nothing else to say...

Dont feel like sleeping tonight... Too much to moan about...
Anyone wanna company me?
Guess tmr i might not be coming home after everything...

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