Monday, August 24, 2009
I was suppose to blog about my week last week from where i left off... So here it is, from wed- today...
Wed morning had pe... As usual, i went late... like 45mins late? Haha... Went to gym cause this time lazy play soccer/basketball... Jog 3km on the machine and do some weights training... Rested, and went for drawing lesson... Started doing more of my overdue homework... I'm so dead... LOL!
Thursday, Had only 1 lesson... Draw and draw and draw... It was really fierce... Than went to makan with emman and his 2 friends... Than while he had his 2nd lesson, i stayed in sch alone to draw... Damn tough i tell you... I really wonder how am i going to survive through all these shit and pass them all up in time... Than went home after that... Changed and get ready, met emman and went to watch the proposal... Damn nice show... It's worth the money man! LOL! We watch the 9.10pm movie... until about 11pm... Than rushed down like crazy to su's house to wish the mum happy birthday...
Friday, Had a make up lesson... So morning i overslept... so didnt go... Went to cut my hair, than went to sch for make up lesson... After lesson, rushed to orchard central to get our ear pierced, than went to novena... This week, i failed to attend the mass there... )): But still i went at least... Prayed for awhile and left... Went to su's place again cause i promised i would be back...
Sat, Fell ill in the middle of the night... Forced myself to get back to rest cause i knew if i were to last through the day, i must rest... So finally got up at 9.30am but couldnt get off the bed cause was really weak... Finally pushed myself off at 9.41am... It was really tough... Took a hot bath and rushed to church with my breakfast... Reached at 10.31am... Late but i guess many were late too? and there were nth much to do... Force myself to makan and drink... Than everything started at 11.30am? Register and stuff... Than classroom sharings and talks... Opened up part of my life past and present... Than dinner time didnt managed to eat much... maybe 5-6mouth? the rest gave emman... LOL! I just couldnt eat... I didnt felt like going for the 2nd part but i just force myself once again... Went there, right from the start of the P&W, i already wanted to cry so badly... But i held on so strong i didnt wanna even let a tear stream down my face... Throughout the whole rally, there were countless number of times how much i really wanan just break down already... Tears were at the very end of my eyes... I was holding them back so hard i told myself WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I EVEN CRY FOR FUCK! I numb myself so bad, i push all my tears that was really gonna stream down... I dont wanna break down infront of anyone... But anyway, the rally was good i guess... Sing my heart out... Every song made many memories flash back... They hurt so much i really just wanna cry my whole heart out... The worst has yet to come... So i cant cry yet... After the rally, went back to church, final facil meeting and left to go makan... Came home about 1am, bath and knock out...
Sunday, went for 11am mass, but this time round, i couldnt feel God's presence... Or maybe my faith isnt there at that point of time... I was even thinking of running away from church during homily... I went out to sit down and many things went through my mind... and i couldnt stop it... But something happened, and i managed to stop thinking... Went back in and attended... After mass, went to RVM to makan, than went for saas meeting...
After meeting, came home to change and went for SOCCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shiok to the max... I tell you, i ran for my life man! And everyone could tell i was running like crazy! i can hit at least 5km with what i ran man fk! Even when it seems almost impossible to run back in time, i always made it and do what i have to... I ran every single shit out... Gave my best and all i could... It was the best run ever since idk when... Really... Thank you God...
After soccer, went home bath and went compass eat... Slack for awhile thereafter, and went to meet aunty... It was a long talk... Didnt expect it to last till so late... i was just expecting it to like last for only 10-15mins? But ended up maybe 2-3hrs... Than cab home and knock out! KO!
Slept till 7.01am... Find it too early and slept till 7.30am... Couldnt get off and slept till maybe 10am? LOL! Shit ballz... Missed sch today! FUCK! now my 8 projects are so gonna die! SCREWED!
I thought about it last night... If i carry on doing my work at this paste, i am so not gonna complete it in time... Cause this week alone got so many that is final deadline! FUCK!
And what a nice start, the very next day which is today, i missed sch! FUCK!
SCREWED!
I wanted to back out for sat's dyd and people said i should too... But just somehow something push me and made me go and not back out... Really it was like a miracle... But yes i didnt regret it cause it helped me alot... And i thank you God for it... ((:
Anw, it's 12.07 now... and i got to go get ready... I need to go settle some major things!
I'll see ya'll around... Goodbye take care and God bless...
And i like my piercing! Hahaha! Bye bye! ((:
11:20 AM
goodbye...