Saturday, October 17, 2009
God, i seek for your forgiveness... Sorry that i didnt go novena this week... I've been having lots of problems lately... Sometimes i just wish to just fly off and never come back... I can cry all i want there, cause no body would care cause no one know's me there... I really find it so hard to sleep each night... Since sch has started, it has given me alot more problems cause i couldnt wake up each morning cause the night before, i would have so much difficulty sleeping... Just last night, i was lying on my bed for 4hrs not being able to sleep... I just wanna work all my energy out so that when the night comes, i will just knock out when i hit the bed... I dont wanna grow any smaller... I tried forcing myself to eat alot more and work out less and stop running and whatever... But it's no use... IDK what else to do... I just hope the time come soon... Than at least i can just be alone somewhere where no one know's me... I havent been doing well in sch... Always late and attendence not mark present... Work not up to my standard and lots of bull shit... idk what else is gonna come in my way... But God, i sure hope you'll be there to help me through each and every part and day of life... Goodbye all... Time to go out cause it's boring at home...
4:39 PM
goodbye...