Friday, July 3, 2009
Just got back not long ago...
I'm so tired... Really tired of so many things...
Well, at least today was okay i guess...
tmr got so many things not confirm... i dont know what to do or which to choose...
Argh!
I hope things get better soon... I have enough of so many things...
maybe it's my turn to show my ****-ing temper since i never did it before...
So many of you have just been throwing your temper and i had almost enough...
I really have enough of so many things...
I'm so frustrated that i wanna just shout at those to give me those problems!
I am so tired of waiting for this or that... I'm so tired of falling sick... I'm so tired of helping others and they never seems to appreciate it and even give me attitude for it... I'm so tired of praying so hard for so many things to work out and be safe so that everyone can be happy... I'm so tired of sleeping each night having to dream about the same person every night cause things cant work out! I'm so tired to even bother to do anything or even eat! I'm so tired of all your fucking excuses you gave for the many wrong things you did! I'm so tired of fighting each day to find myself making no progress but sometimes even worst! I'm so tired of exercising anymore! I'm so tired of facebook, tv, radio, sms-ing, talking on phone and EVERYTHING!!!!!! FUCK UH!
i'm so tired i just wanna sleep and never dream of anything anymore and there's no need to wake up anymore... Haix... But i cant... cause i know in this world, my mum still needs me... She's the only person that love me now i guess?
Today for the 1st time after dunno how many years, she asked me out for lunch with her...
And shockingly, today she was so different towards me since the moment she woke up!
She said good morning and all sia... Than went to have lunch with her at RVM at around 2pm? Came back about 3pm... We had macs btw... ((: Haha! I had Mac spicy meal upsize drinks change to milo less ice! ((: SHIOK! ((:
Well mum, i know i've never said this to you before, but you do know that I love you right? ((:
Thanks for bringing my into this world and giving me all the support and love and care and concern whenever i fail in my studies, feel lonely, fell sick, especially when i had high fever for one whole week when i was in pri sch, you hardly slept and you stayed by my side and come to change the towel on my forehead every few hrs even though you were so tired... Thanks mum... ((: You are someone that will never push me away i guess... Just that you get a little too annoying sometimes... ((: Haha... Goodbye world! ((:
My mum made me happy... ((:
10:26 PM
goodbye...