Thursday, November 26, 2009
God, i've helped many people throughout my life wholeheartedly... Whenever anyone's sad/down and i know about it, i'll help that person... Whenever something happens to anyone and i know about it, i'll be there... But God, honestly i dont know what to do... I might not even get to stay in sch any longer... Well God, from my N's to O's and now ITE but still it's not for me? Almost everything i've done i failed... But without any pullbacks, i never let it overtake me for too long cause i know i could use that time to do something to make my life better rather than just being sad and making others sad... I've learn to put a smile on my face no matter what but these days, it's been getting so tough, i dont know what to say... Sometimes it's so tough that maybe i just wanna be alone for the wholeday... I want to be happy and put a smile on my face so much that i'm never tired of it... I might not have a sch next term anymore... and i dont know what to do... My results have been going down down down since sch started... Yst night my teacher msn me that by next term if my grades continue to drop at this rate, i guess i might be out... Few weeks back one of my sub teacher sat down beside me and ask me drop out and study something else he said so many bad stuff that i really didnt know hw else to carry on... After that day, i never once attended his lesson anymore... He used to find that i have a talent in it but just i havent push myself to get it out yet... But after seeing my results dropping so badly continuesly, he suggest that i should make plans for my next year instead of coming back to sch... Many things have been happening actually... Putting a smile on my face each day really gets tougher... I'm getting by day by day not daring to look forward and make plans anymore... Dreams it may be but it always gets smashed but it doesnt really set me back down but many other things... I havent been blogging for a long time... I really want to find some space and time to just be happy... God i belive that isnt a problem but just my sch... Help me yeah... Tks... Goodbye world... Sadness it may be, But i'm sure HAPPINESS IS AWAITING ME! ((:
11:16 PM
goodbye...